The following is my respectful belated reply to the older relative of mine who repeatedly and emphatically declared to me on the telephone in the 1990s that each and every one of my own cited "criticisms" of the gay subculture in the United States were also allegedly very "applicable" to myself, John Kevin McMillan of Texas:
---I myself have been completely celibate by choice on roughly 99.9 percent or more of all my days and nights as an adult human being.
---In the entire 21st Century period of my own life, I myself have never on any occasion ever once directly stated to any other human being on any occasion that I myself wanted to have sex with that individual. And even during the prior 20th Century period of my own life, I only rarely ever directly stated to any other human being that I myself wanted to have sex with that individual. My platonic politeness is a longtime strength of mine from that standpoint.
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once stated to anyone that a cited individual is "my lover, " or that I myself am "the lover" of a cited individual. In fact, I myself in a civil and law-abiding manner dislike and consistently refrain from using the very awkward and insipid term "lover," which in an ill-advised and irresponsible manner implies that that same individual's primary identity in life or primary role in life is sexual or romantic in nature.
---I myself have never claimed to myself be "compatible" as a human being with any person whom I consistently find to be lacking in conversational compatibility with me, and whose own cited "favorite topics of conversation" are either alien to me or alienating to me or boring to me or trivial to me.
----I would estimate that throughout my adult life, 99 percent or more of all the adult men whom I enjoy the most as human beings and as in-person conversation partners in my own life are either heterosexual or almost exclusively heterosexual in sexual identity per se.
--My own long-term goal ever since the 1970s of my pursuing a life and personal life and career and religious life for myself in which the percentage of all adult acquaintances or friends or associates or coreligionists of mine who are themselves self-identified homosexual, "gay", lesbian, transsexual, effeminate male adult, bisexual, or transvestite persons, is, in fact, minimal, has always been accompanied by law-abiding and civil conduct on my own part.
----I prefer to associate with men and women who are tactfully honest and civil and law-abiding.
----I myself have never claimed to "love" another human being during a multi-month period in which I repeatedly and frequently declined to share a meal and friendly mutually-respectful
one-to-one conversation with that human being inside a restaurant or cafe or, if applicable, inside a university-owned cafeteria or university-sponsored cafeteria.
----I myself convey a respectfulness toward others accompanied by a wholesome G-rated vocabulary on my part and a strong sense of platonic purpose in life.
More than 10 years have passed since any person anywhere in the world ever at any time directly stated to me that that individual wanted to have sex with me. That shocking incident with no context to it occurred in the 1990s during a lunchtime meal and conversation I was having while seated across the table from a cited bald male adult person inside a Conan's Pizza restaurant along Riverside Drive in south Austin.
That male adult person had been identified to me in advance of that two-person first-time as well as obviously-platonic-only meeting as someone who already had a male romantic partner or male sex partner living with him in Austin, Texas. The incident occurred when the bald male adult person suddenly and with no context to his comment of any type volunteered to me inside Conan's Pizza restaurant: "My lover is away from our home right now and I have some free time available, so after this meal would be good time for you to visit my home and have sex with me." I was, needless to say, somewhat disgusted and offended by that completely unsolicited and very presumptuous comment, and I politely declined the invitation from that particular unattractive male adult person. I have not gotten together with that individual on any occasion since then.
Prior to that, the most recent comparable incident I can recall were the repeated interuptions of my attempts to urinate alone, by myself, inside convenience store restrooms by a senior citizen married man from Denver City, Texas, in December 1996. That married man and his wife, a heterosexual adult woman, had very kindly volunteered to help me move my belongings from Denver City, Texas, to Palestine, Texas, in connection with my having accepted a job offer as a full-time reporter for the "Palestine Herald-Press" general-circulation daily newspaper. I was successful at preventing the married man in question from having any sexual contact with me of any type, but I was thoroughly disgusted by the repeated sexual harassment of me he had inflicted on me on several occasions during visits of mine into the men's restroom at several gasoline stations throughout that long road trip from West Texas to East Texas.
Prior to that, the most recent previous incident of that type I can recall was a very surprising moment for me after I entered a bar or restaurant of some type during daytime hours in the small town of Snyder, Texas, in the summer of 1994, either during a period in which I was a full-time reporter for the "Snyder Daily News" general-circulation newspaper or shortly after I had been dismissed from the staff of that newspaepr on good terms. I did not order any alcoholic beverage, and in fact I have been a complete and permanent abstainer from drinking alcohol ever since the late summer of 1990. After I entered the cited bar or restaurant in Snyder, Texas, immediately a male senior citizen stranger approached me and bluntly asked me to have sex with him. I was somewhat disgusted and offended by that sexual proposition that had no context to it at all, and I did politely decline that particular senior citizen's "invitation" to me.
----I myself consistently find that I am much more likely to identify strongly with and agree to associate with law-abiding gentlemen who on an in-person basis prompt me to think of the following words or phrases to describe them: "wholesome," "idealistic," "polite and gentlemanly," "tactfully honest," "philosophically deep," "substantive," "healthy and youthful," "politely aggressive," "independent-minded," "morally strong," "hyigienic," "personable", "affable," "friendly," "cheerful," "optimistic," "cheerful effect on me," "refreshngly non-cynical," "thoughtful," "constructive," "easy to talk with," "good presence," "calming effect on me," "smile-inducing," "natural," "likable," "innovative," "empathetic," etc.
----Throughout my entire adult life, I have consistently found that the adult men whom I myself trusted the most as human beings are the gentlemen who appear to be law-abiding and civil and fully respectful of Freedom of Speech rights for everyone, and who, in addition, verbalize or convey a prevailingly critical vantage point toward the "gay community" that cites specific factual evidence in regard to conduct exhibited by the so-called "gay community" or the so-called "gay subsculture" or in regard to many specified aspects of the so-called "gay-rights movement."
----I myself habitually take the initiative each workday for me to greet many of my coworkers and my work supervisors at each of my workplaces in a friendly and respectful manner on my part, something I have done throughout nearly all of my career.
---I myself have been completely celibate throughout all of my conscious or waking hours anywhere and everywhere in the Austin area of Texas ever since December of 1979. I have resided in Austin proper on a continuous and uninterrupted basis ever since mid-March 1997, most recently.
----I myself emphatically disagree with those who declare (as one male adult resident of Minneapolis, Minnesota, did in a very surprising and completely unsolicited emphatic statement he made to me on the telephone in 1988 or 1989, during a long-distnace phone call I made to his residence from my duplex rental apartment unit in El Campo, Texas) that "All human beings have a deep-seated biological need to have sex with other human beings on a frequent and year-round basis."
----I myself have never at any time advised any other human being (as one male adult resdient of Minneapolis, Minnesota, did with no apparent context to it his unsolicited advice of that type that he volunteered to me from his end of the telephone line in 1988 or 1989, during a long-distance phone call I had made to his Minneapolis private residence from a duplex rental apartment I was renting in El Campo, Texas): "I (the self-identified male adult resident of Minneapolis) recommend that you develop a habit of driving to the nearest big city (Houston) every weekend and picking up a complete stranger inside a bar there each weekend in order to have a one-night stand with a series of new strangers (approximate quote). You could get AIDS that way, but life itself is just a gamble, and it's a gamble worth taking."
----I myself have never stated to any other human being (as one male adult apparent native of Minneapolis, Minnesota, stated to me on the telephone in 1983 or 1984, during a long-distance phone call I made to that individual at his cited private residence in San Francisco, California, from my own private apartment in Minneapolis, Minnesota): "You yourself were always very paranoid about the risk of your getting AIDS in Minneapolis."
----I myself have never been charged by any law-enforcement agency anywhere in the world with any alcohol-related crime or any illicit-drug-related crime on any occasion in my entire life.
---I myself am tactfully honest and conscientious and consistently civil and law-abiding, and I do not have any criminal-conviction record.
----I myself have never at any time ever once replied to a personals ad in a newspaper or magazine (as one apparent resident of the Austin area of Texas did in 1988 or the early 1990s in response to a wholesomely-worded and confidential personals ad of mine in "The Austin Chronicle" alternative weekly newspaper in Austin, Texas), by myself stating (as some person unwknownst to me definitely did in a handwritten letter that that individual wrote and mailed to me care of "The Austin Chronicle" editors and staff in either 1988 or the early 1990s): "If you are who I think you are, I want to break every bone in your body! But if you AREN'T who I think you are, I'd be very interested in getting together with you for a mutually-enjoyable experience" (approximate quote).
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once hosted any dinner party or any social party at which any of the persons who attended that party as guests ever once were observed by me consuming or possessing or selling any quantity of marijuana or any illicit drug of any type at any time during that party.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once stated to anyone that in my own cited role as a social party host or dinner-party host, I would myself permit, or have myself ever at any time permitted, any sexual activity of any type anywhere in the party room or anywhere else on the grounds of the party site.
---I myself am very devoted to crime deterrence, and I have filed hundreds of crime-prevention-minded crime reports with law-enforcement agencies ever since 1979.
In late 1979, I made a 911 lnighttime call to the Naples Police Department in Naples, Florida, to express my own concern about the well-being of a heavyset man I had observed lying on the front seat of his car as I walked past his Cadillac sedan in the parking lot in front of a Naples nightclub.
The man in question, a complete stranger to me whom I myself had never spoken with at any time, appeared to be lying unconscious across the front seat of a Cadillac sedan that was parked in the parking lot of a nightclub in Naples---a nightclub situated near two major highway interections in that southwest Florida city.
The 911 dispatcher responded to my very concerned crime report by laughing on his end of the phone line, and by stating to me that the older man in question was obviously drunk and had passed out, the dispatcher for Naples PD informed me. That same dispatcher indicated to me that there would be no need for any response to my phone report by the Naples Police Department, since the unconscious man in question was obviously drunk, that gentlemanly dispatcher explained to me from his end of the phone line at the Naples PD dispatch center in Naples, Florida.
----I myself habitually file crime reports with law-enforcement agencies about suspicious incidents I observe, this without my ever exempting any person of any cited "sexual-identity group" or of any cited "gender identity group", for that matter, as possible suspects in regard to those criminal-law complaints that I routinely file during my leisuretime.
----I myself very politely chose not to participate in any way, and was myself somewhat repulsed and dismayed, when a cited "break" during a men's poetry group meeting in south Minneapolis, Minnesota, in 1982 or 1981 featured several of the men from that poetry group entering a men's restroom together in that social-services building while stating in advance that they planned to engage in promiscuous sex with one another inside that public restroom as part of their "break" experience during that men's poetry group meeting. That was the last-ever meeting of that men's "poetry group" that I myself can recall having attended.
---I myself never advised anyone (as a male medical physican in a suburb of Minneapolis, Minnesota, emphatically and in a very insulting manner advised me in person in 1982 or so during a medical consultation appointment I had made with him at his suburban medical clinic upon referral from a longtime Minneapolis resident): "Your (John Kevin McMillan's) problem is sex! You need to roll around in the hay more often!" (approximate quote).
----I myself have filed numerous complaints with the Austin Police Department in Austin, Texas, in the multi-year period since 1997, for instance, relating to possible evidence of marijuana-related or other illicit-drug-related activities that I myself have observed in Austin, Texas.
----I myself have either never or almost never referred to police officers as "cops" or "the fuzz" or "pigs" or any other unflattering term for police, it being my emphatic view that any such flippant or slanderous term is disrespectful towared peace officers and their noble mission on behalf of crime deterrence and law-enforcement.
---I myself have worked full-time in Austin, Texas, for three respective government law-enforcement agencies, and I was not fired from any of those three State Government of Texas law-enforcement agency positions of employment that I held for a total of several combined years in the 1990s and the first decade of the 21st Century.
---I take pride in myself being politely aggressive in my overall personal style and personality, and almost never does anyone ever state to me that he or she regards me as being "passive" or "passive-aggressive."
The last person I can current recall who stated to me that he regarded me as being "passive" was Austin-area private attorney Erwin McGee, a Stephen F. Austin High aluumnus and distinguished State Bar of Texas member who met with me inside his private law office in Westlake Hills, Texas, in 1992.
During that two-person consultation meeting that I had myself requested upon referral to private attorney Erwin McGee from the very distinguished State Bar of Texas member and private attorney Fred Niemann of Austin, I repeatedly complained to private attorney McGee about alleged violations of my own privacy rights allegedly occurring in Texas, including in the Austin area, during that time period. Attorney McGee repeatedly emphasized to me during that legal consultation meeting I had with him that he was not aware of ANY violations of my own privacy rights that were at all tangible to himself or at all observable to himself or at all actionable in any way. Attorney Erwin McGee volunteered to me at the end of the two-person meeting as I walked out of his law office that he regarded me as myself being "passive" (exact quote), he said. Mr. McGee does not currently represent me in any way, I might add.
----I myself strongly support a truly comprehensive appraoch to evaluating the overall caliber of human beings, with an emphasis on a wide array of platnically-observable traits such as level of honesty, moral values, personality traits, level of obedience of the law, conversational aptitude, level of philosophical and emotional depth as a human being, level of sincere interest in addressing the broader needs of the city, state, nation, and world in which one lives, level of respect for my own and others' privacy rights, whether that individual strikes me as being a "true gentleman" or a "true lady," speech and locution, level of personability, sense of humor and style of humor exhibited by that individual, physical appearance traits, hygienic traits, etc.
----I myself have almost never been told or informed by any other human being that he regarded me as nyself lacking in self-awareness.
In fact, one apparently friendly adult male resident of Worcester, Massachusets, Paul Williams, a former resident of Connecticut and Clark University undergraduate student at the time, in 1984 or 1985 volunteered to me on the telephone from his and his wife's rental apartment unit in Worcester that Paul Williams had been impressed by what he regarded as my own self-awareness.
Paul Williams of Worcester, Mass., offered me that compliment in the context of the following approximate observation he volunteered to me on the telephone one day in 1984 or 1985: "One thing that separates you (John Kevin McMillan of Worcester, Mass.) from all of the other neurotics I've ever heard about or met is that you yourself are actually aware of being neurotic. I (Paul Williams) find that to be a rather refreshing trait in yourself."
----I myself have been called "conscientious" and "very honest" by others on a frequent basis throughout my life.
In fact, during my youth my biological mother, the very kindly and benevolent Mrs. Phyllis McMillan of Westlake Hills, Texas, on several or more occasions gently stated to me that "You are TOO conscientious, Kevin" (exact quote). More recently, a former schoolmate of mine from Stephen F. Austin High School of Austin Independent School District, the people-friendly Bill Leach of Austin, very kindly volunteered to me on the telephone in the 21st Century that "You (John Kevin McMillan of Austin) are as honest as the day is long!"
----I myself have been told several times this 21st Century by restaurant coworkers of mine and acquaintances of mine in Austin, Texas, either that they would never, or they were inclined not to, invite me to a social party that they expected to host in the future or were in fact hosting that same month, respectively, because I myself am "too straight" for themselves and their friends, they each politely stated to me.
---As a morally and aesthetically straight, facially cleanshaven and handsome teetotaling gentleman, I have repeatedly verbalized my own personal and professional legal goal to numerous private attorneys I have consulted in Texas over a multi-decade period of myself seeking to achieve a significant INCREASE in the number and percentage of my own personal friends and my own professional associates who are, in fact, law-abiding heterosexual men and law-abiding heterosexual women.
----I often find that I myself feel great enjoyment and sublime pleasure as a human being from myself being in the presence of true gentlemen who are masculine or relatively masculine, facially cleanshaven (no facial hair), personable, polite, calm or enthusiastic, youthful, handsome or relatively handsome, male adult men in their 20s or 30s, for instance, and who have good voice modulation or pleasant-sounding voices (not tobacco-scarred voices); and a high percentage of the true gentlemen fitting that description whom I myself enjoy the most overall from ny own vantage point as an observant gentleman, are, in fact, heterosexual or primarily heterosexual in sexual identity per se.
----I have found throughout my entire adult life that a significantly higher percentage of all of the masculine or relatively masculine heterosexual adult men and all of the heterosexual adult women (as distinct from all of the self-identified homosexual male adult persons, all of the self-identified gay adult persons, all of the effeminate male adult persons, all of the self-identified lesbian adult persons, all of the self-identified bisexual adult persons, and all of the self-identified transsexual adult persons, in particular) did not offend me significantly at any time, were pleasant persons to associate with, and showed respect for my own privacy rights.
---I often refer to a younger gentleman I admire as having a "nice personality," it being my belief that an attractive personality in a younger man pervasively enhances that individual's overall presence and level of aesthetic appeal as a human being.
----I would estimate that 99 percent or more of the male adult persons and the female adult persons who are most appropriate as prospective or actual members of the Progressive Prohibitionist Religion, a non-Christian, non-Catholic, non-Unitarian, non-Judaistic, non-Moslem, non-Quaker, non-Shinto-Buddhist, fully independent and non-proselytizing religion that I have myself estalbished, are in fact heterosexual or primarily heterosexual in sexual identity per se.
My Progressive Prohibitionist Religion with very strict membership eligibility requirements is very devoted to helping children and many other young persons under age 30, and to helping parents who are raising children inside their own home or who are themselves raising or helping to raise offspring of theirs under age 30.
---I myself have never told anyone at any time ub my entire life that because of his or her own religious beliefs or conduct as a human being, he or she was at risk of going to hell.
The implicitly deistic non-Christian and one-member (myself, only) Progressive Prohibitionist Religion that I've founded respectfully maintains that the hypothetical existence of an afterlife for human beings upon their own death has never been scientifically proven.
---I myself have never smoked any tobacco product on any occasion in my entire life, and I despise tobacco products.
---I myself consistently use clean or non-misanthropic language in my everyday conversations with others, with the primary noteworthy exception of instances in which I feel a need to quote to a third party a profane or misanthropic or nasty comment that another individual had either verbalized to me or verbalized within earshot of me.
---I myself almost never mutter aloud to myself any nasty or hostile comments about another person that can be overheard by coworkers of mine or work supervisors of mine at my workplace.
When I am walking away from a customer of mine, for instance, I NEVER on any occasion mutter to myself the profane comment, "F-cking (obscenity) a-shole (obscenity)!," which was, in fact, the exact profane comment that I myself in a recent prior year had been victimized by from a waiter assigned to me when I myself during my leisuretime dined alone inside a Marie Callender's chain restaurant near the Arboretum in northwest Austin, Texas. I did politely complain to a manager at that northwest Austin Marie Callender's location about that hostile and obscene conduct, and I appreciated the "profane speech discount" on the check for my meal that I received from a manager at that restaurant after I very politely and very accurately complained to that manager that I found it degrading and very unpleasant to hear my assigned waiter muttering "F-cking (obscenity) a-shole (obscenity)!" immediately as he walked away from my dining table after I had politely placed my order with that waiter from my assigned dining table. I found it very disappointing that when I later complained online about that incident to corporate headquarters officials for Marie Callender's restaurant chain in southern California, I did not receive any apology letter of any type from the corporate headquarters for Marie Callender's.
---I myself revere and strongly support the legal right and Constitutional right of any human being, including myself, to guide himself in his own personal life and overal life partly based on personal and aesthetic and philosophical aversions and antipathies and prejudices of any type that he himself experiences toward other human beings, with the clear understanding that his own observable conduct per se (as distinct from his privacy-rights-protected internal thought process per se, for instance) should always be diligently law-abiding in nature.
---I myself emphatically oppose any and all thought-control projects aimed at censoring the political or religious beliefs or personal beliefs or philosophical beliefs of any person in any way, my own very emphatic view being that any American citizen should enjoy the legal and Constitutional right to have any internal thoughts or prejudices that he wishes, provided that his own observable external conduct is law-abiding in nature.
---I myself emphatically reject the view that a person who hates or despises myself, for instance, is on that cited basis "guilty of a hate crime."
It is very apparent to me that no hate crime has occurred until such time as the individual who dislikes or despises myself, John Kevin McMillan of northwest Austin in this capital city of Texas, U.S.A., himself pursues an observable action, such as through his attempting to poison me or his ordering or paying someone to pursue, or through himself pursuing, a hypothetical home invasion into my own bolt-locked private residence that is also accompanied by alleged personal injury of any type to myself by that assailant which also wrongs me and expresses hatred of me based in part on the assailant's perception of me as being white or as myself being the founder and sole current member of a non-Christian alcohol-free and anti-marijuana religion with very strict membership eligibility requirements, the Progressive Prohibitionist Religion----personal injury crimes victimizing myself that also, I might add, flagrantly violate the state penal code of Texas and may possibly comprise a federal offense as well.
---I myself fully support the legal right and Constitutional right of any American citizen to himself or herself lawfully and in a civil manner refuse to participate in any inter-racial dating or any inter-ethnic dating, even, if he or she so chooses, any such major lifestyle decision being strictly his own prerogative, and on that basis a self-identified white Anglo gentleman of British and German ancestry, for instance, should therefore enjoy the full legal and Constitutional right at all times to himself politely decline to have ANY carnal relations of any type that would involve himself with ANY person who is of Far East Asian ancestry, ANY person of Indonesian ancestry, ANY person of African ancestry, ANY person of Asian Indian ancestry, etc.
---I myself have a very high capacity for affectionate strictly-platonic personal relationships with a wide range of people, including individuals who are (and it is only a tiny percentage, obviously, who fit that description) actually attractive to me.
---I myself NEVER in my entire life have ever on any occasion stated to any other human being that "I regard that male adult person as being a 'closet case'" or "that male adult person who says he's straight is actually a closeted gay person."
I strongly support the legal right and human right of each adult human being to decide for himself his own prevailing or predominant sexual identity, if he chooses to ever have any publicly cited sexual identity of any type. I also emphatically reject the gay-argot terms "closet case" and "closeted," it being my own very mpahtic view that the gay subculture in its pathological overemphasis on "sex" and "sexuality" and its contempt for and defiance of exclusively-platonic mutual-consent personal relationships, is actually one of the most repressively "closeting" subcultures in all of American history.
I am reminded that one self-identified "gay" male professor at The University of Texas at Austin did volunteer to me in person in 1986 inside the Magnolia Cafe restaurant along Riverside Drive in Austin, this in an unsolicited disclosure to me from that gay male professor, that a cited older male colleague of his from the same academic department, a colleague of his who was in fact married to and living with a heterosexual woman at the time, was, in the stated view of that "gay" professor, "possibly a repressed homosexual," or words to that effect.
That unsolicited "oral evaluation" of the cited colleague of a gay male UT-Austin professor was volunteered to me by the later individual in the context of his volunteering to me that the cited male colleague of his in the History Department at UT-Austin was decidedly aloof and unfriendly toward that particular self-identified gay male professor.
----I myself never stated to another human being, as one male adult resident of south Minneapolis stated to me in a completely unsolicited comment he made a matter of seconds after he observed a self-identified heterosexual adult male coworker of mine who had just made a friendly and cheerful mutual-consent visit to me inside my apartment unit in Minneapolis in 1982: "Give him time! (exact quote). If you keep up with him, I feel sure that he'll prove to be a hot number for you in the bedroom someday!" (approximate quote). I myself never at any time in my entire life ever once stated to anyone anywhere in the entire world that I myself sought to have sexual contact of any type or a sexual romantic involvement of any type with the cited male adult heterosexual gentleman; I had, instead, praised his cheerful and wholesome personal style.
---I myself strongly support the legal and human right of any and all human beings to lead a completely celibate and unmolested as well as uninjured lifestyle on a permanent and year-round basis, including at all times during any and all periods in which those human beings are sleeping alone on their own bed inside their bolt-locked private residence.
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