The following is my respectful belated reply to the older relative of mine who repeatedly and emphatically declared to me on the telephone in the 1990s that each and every one of my own cited "criticisms" of the gay subculture in the United States were also allegedly very "applicable" to myself, John Kevin McMillan of Texas:
---I myself have been completely celibate by choice on roughly 99.9 percent or more of all my days and nights as an adult human being.
---In the entire 21st Century period of my own life, I myself have never on any occasion ever once directly stated to any other human being on any occasion that I myself wanted to have sex with that individual. And even during the prior 20th Century period of my own life, I only rarely ever directly stated to any other human being that I myself wanted to have sex with that individual. My platonic politeness is a longtime strength of mine from that standpoint.
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once stated to anyone that a cited individual is "my lover, " or that I myself am "the lover" of a cited individual. In fact, I myself in a civil and law-abiding manner dislike and consistently refrain from using the very awkward and insipid term "lover," which in an ill-advised and irresponsible manner implies that that same individual's primary identity in life or primary role in life is sexual or romantic in nature.
---I myself have never claimed to myself be "compatible" as a human being with any person whom I consistently find to be lacking in conversational compatibility with me, and whose own cited "favorite topics of conversation" are either alien to me or alienating to me or boring to me or trivial to me.
----I would estimate that throughout my adult life, 99 percent or more of all the adult men whom I enjoy the most as human beings and as in-person conversation partners in my own life are either heterosexual or almost exclusively heterosexual in sexual identity per se.
--My own long-term goal ever since the 1970s of my pursuing a life and personal life and career and religious life for myself in which the percentage of all adult acquaintances or friends or associates or coreligionists of mine who are themselves self-identified homosexual, "gay", lesbian, transsexual, effeminate male adult, bisexual, or transvestite persons, is, in fact, minimal, has always been accompanied by law-abiding and civil conduct on my own part.
----I prefer to associate with men and women who are tactfully honest and civil and law-abiding.
----I myself have never claimed to "love" another human being during a multi-month period in which I repeatedly and frequently declined to share a meal and friendly mutually-respectful
one-to-one conversation with that human being inside a restaurant or cafe or, if applicable, inside a university-owned cafeteria or university-sponsored cafeteria.
----I myself convey a respectfulness toward others accompanied by a wholesome G-rated vocabulary on my part and a strong sense of platonic purpose in life.
More than 10 years have passed since any person anywhere in the world ever at any time directly stated to me that that individual wanted to have sex with me. That shocking incident with no context to it occurred in the 1990s during a lunchtime meal and conversation I was having while seated across the table from a cited bald male adult person inside a Conan's Pizza restaurant along Riverside Drive in south Austin.
That male adult person had been identified to me in advance of that two-person first-time as well as obviously-platonic-only meeting as someone who already had a male romantic partner or male sex partner living with him in Austin, Texas. The incident occurred when the bald male adult person suddenly and with no context to his comment of any type volunteered to me inside Conan's Pizza restaurant: "My lover is away from our home right now and I have some free time available, so after this meal would be good time for you to visit my home and have sex with me." I was, needless to say, somewhat disgusted and offended by that completely unsolicited and very presumptuous comment, and I politely declined the invitation from that particular unattractive male adult person. I have not gotten together with that individual on any occasion since then.
Prior to that, the most recent comparable incident I can recall were the repeated interuptions of my attempts to urinate alone, by myself, inside convenience store restrooms by a senior citizen married man from Denver City, Texas, in December 1996. That married man and his wife, a heterosexual adult woman, had very kindly volunteered to help me move my belongings from Denver City, Texas, to Palestine, Texas, in connection with my having accepted a job offer as a full-time reporter for the "Palestine Herald-Press" general-circulation daily newspaper. I was successful at preventing the married man in question from having any sexual contact with me of any type, but I was thoroughly disgusted by the repeated sexual harassment of me he had inflicted on me on several occasions during visits of mine into the men's restroom at several gasoline stations throughout that long road trip from West Texas to East Texas.
Prior to that, the most recent previous incident of that type I can recall was a very surprising moment for me after I entered a bar or restaurant of some type during daytime hours in the small town of Snyder, Texas, in the summer of 1994, either during a period in which I was a full-time reporter for the "Snyder Daily News" general-circulation newspaper or shortly after I had been dismissed from the staff of that newspaepr on good terms. I did not order any alcoholic beverage, and in fact I have been a complete and permanent abstainer from drinking alcohol ever since the late summer of 1990. After I entered the cited bar or restaurant in Snyder, Texas, immediately a male senior citizen stranger approached me and bluntly asked me to have sex with him. I was somewhat disgusted and offended by that sexual proposition that had no context to it at all, and I did politely decline that particular senior citizen's "invitation" to me.
----I myself consistently find that I am much more likely to identify strongly with and agree to associate with law-abiding gentlemen who on an in-person basis prompt me to think of the following words or phrases to describe them: "wholesome," "idealistic," "polite and gentlemanly," "tactfully honest," "philosophically deep," "substantive," "healthy and youthful," "politely aggressive," "independent-minded," "morally strong," "hyigienic," "personable", "affable," "friendly," "cheerful," "optimistic," "cheerful effect on me," "refreshngly non-cynical," "thoughtful," "constructive," "easy to talk with," "good presence," "calming effect on me," "smile-inducing," "natural," "likable," "innovative," "empathetic," etc.
----Throughout my entire adult life, I have consistently found that the adult men whom I myself trusted the most as human beings are the gentlemen who appear to be law-abiding and civil and fully respectful of Freedom of Speech rights for everyone, and who, in addition, verbalize or convey a prevailingly critical vantage point toward the "gay community" that cites specific factual evidence in regard to conduct exhibited by the so-called "gay community" or the so-called "gay subsculture" or in regard to many specified aspects of the so-called "gay-rights movement."
----I myself habitually take the initiative each workday for me to greet many of my coworkers and my work supervisors at each of my workplaces in a friendly and respectful manner on my part, something I have done throughout nearly all of my career.
---I myself have been completely celibate throughout all of my conscious or waking hours anywhere and everywhere in the Austin area of Texas ever since December of 1979. I have resided in Austin proper on a continuous and uninterrupted basis ever since mid-March 1997, most recently.
----I myself emphatically disagree with those who declare (as one male adult resident of Minneapolis, Minnesota, did in a very surprising and completely unsolicited emphatic statement he made to me on the telephone in 1988 or 1989, during a long-distnace phone call I made to his residence from my duplex rental apartment unit in El Campo, Texas) that "All human beings have a deep-seated biological need to have sex with other human beings on a frequent and year-round basis."
----I myself have never at any time advised any other human being (as one male adult resdient of Minneapolis, Minnesota, did with no apparent context to it his unsolicited advice of that type that he volunteered to me from his end of the telephone line in 1988 or 1989, during a long-distance phone call I had made to his Minneapolis private residence from a duplex rental apartment I was renting in El Campo, Texas): "I (the self-identified male adult resident of Minneapolis) recommend that you develop a habit of driving to the nearest big city (Houston) every weekend and picking up a complete stranger inside a bar there each weekend in order to have a one-night stand with a series of new strangers (approximate quote). You could get AIDS that way, but life itself is just a gamble, and it's a gamble worth taking."
----I myself have never stated to any other human being (as one male adult apparent native of Minneapolis, Minnesota, stated to me on the telephone in 1983 or 1984, during a long-distance phone call I made to that individual at his cited private residence in San Francisco, California, from my own private apartment in Minneapolis, Minnesota): "You yourself were always very paranoid about the risk of your getting AIDS in Minneapolis."
----I myself have never been charged by any law-enforcement agency anywhere in the world with any alcohol-related crime or any illicit-drug-related crime on any occasion in my entire life.
---I myself am tactfully honest and conscientious and consistently civil and law-abiding, and I do not have any criminal-conviction record.
----I myself have never at any time ever once replied to a personals ad in a newspaper or magazine (as one apparent resident of the Austin area of Texas did in 1988 or the early 1990s in response to a wholesomely-worded and confidential personals ad of mine in "The Austin Chronicle" alternative weekly newspaper in Austin, Texas), by myself stating (as some person unwknownst to me definitely did in a handwritten letter that that individual wrote and mailed to me care of "The Austin Chronicle" editors and staff in either 1988 or the early 1990s): "If you are who I think you are, I want to break every bone in your body! But if you AREN'T who I think you are, I'd be very interested in getting together with you for a mutually-enjoyable experience" (approximate quote).
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once hosted any dinner party or any social party at which any of the persons who attended that party as guests ever once were observed by me consuming or possessing or selling any quantity of marijuana or any illicit drug of any type at any time during that party.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once stated to anyone that in my own cited role as a social party host or dinner-party host, I would myself permit, or have myself ever at any time permitted, any sexual activity of any type anywhere in the party room or anywhere else on the grounds of the party site.
---I myself am very devoted to crime deterrence, and I have filed hundreds of crime-prevention-minded crime reports with law-enforcement agencies ever since 1979.
In late 1979, I made a 911 lnighttime call to the Naples Police Department in Naples, Florida, to express my own concern about the well-being of a heavyset man I had observed lying on the front seat of his car as I walked past his Cadillac sedan in the parking lot in front of a Naples nightclub.
The man in question, a complete stranger to me whom I myself had never spoken with at any time, appeared to be lying unconscious across the front seat of a Cadillac sedan that was parked in the parking lot of a nightclub in Naples---a nightclub situated near two major highway interections in that southwest Florida city.
The 911 dispatcher responded to my very concerned crime report by laughing on his end of the phone line, and by stating to me that the older man in question was obviously drunk and had passed out, the dispatcher for Naples PD informed me. That same dispatcher indicated to me that there would be no need for any response to my phone report by the Naples Police Department, since the unconscious man in question was obviously drunk, that gentlemanly dispatcher explained to me from his end of the phone line at the Naples PD dispatch center in Naples, Florida.
---I myself have been completely celibate by choice on roughly 99.9 percent or more of all my days and nights as an adult human being.
---In the entire 21st Century period of my own life, I myself have never on any occasion ever once directly stated to any other human being on any occasion that I myself wanted to have sex with that individual. And even during the prior 20th Century period of my own life, I only rarely ever directly stated to any other human being that I myself wanted to have sex with that individual. My platonic politeness is a longtime strength of mine from that standpoint.
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once stated to anyone that a cited individual is "my lover, " or that I myself am "the lover" of a cited individual. In fact, I myself in a civil and law-abiding manner dislike and consistently refrain from using the very awkward and insipid term "lover," which in an ill-advised and irresponsible manner implies that that same individual's primary identity in life or primary role in life is sexual or romantic in nature.
---I myself have never claimed to myself be "compatible" as a human being with any person whom I consistently find to be lacking in conversational compatibility with me, and whose own cited "favorite topics of conversation" are either alien to me or alienating to me or boring to me or trivial to me.
----I would estimate that throughout my adult life, 99 percent or more of all the adult men whom I enjoy the most as human beings and as in-person conversation partners in my own life are either heterosexual or almost exclusively heterosexual in sexual identity per se.
--My own long-term goal ever since the 1970s of my pursuing a life and personal life and career and religious life for myself in which the percentage of all adult acquaintances or friends or associates or coreligionists of mine who are themselves self-identified homosexual, "gay", lesbian, transsexual, effeminate male adult, bisexual, or transvestite persons, is, in fact, minimal, has always been accompanied by law-abiding and civil conduct on my own part.
----I prefer to associate with men and women who are tactfully honest and civil and law-abiding.
----I myself have never claimed to "love" another human being during a multi-month period in which I repeatedly and frequently declined to share a meal and friendly mutually-respectful
one-to-one conversation with that human being inside a restaurant or cafe or, if applicable, inside a university-owned cafeteria or university-sponsored cafeteria.
----I myself convey a respectfulness toward others accompanied by a wholesome G-rated vocabulary on my part and a strong sense of platonic purpose in life.
More than 10 years have passed since any person anywhere in the world ever at any time directly stated to me that that individual wanted to have sex with me. That shocking incident with no context to it occurred in the 1990s during a lunchtime meal and conversation I was having while seated across the table from a cited bald male adult person inside a Conan's Pizza restaurant along Riverside Drive in south Austin.
That male adult person had been identified to me in advance of that two-person first-time as well as obviously-platonic-only meeting as someone who already had a male romantic partner or male sex partner living with him in Austin, Texas. The incident occurred when the bald male adult person suddenly and with no context to his comment of any type volunteered to me inside Conan's Pizza restaurant: "My lover is away from our home right now and I have some free time available, so after this meal would be good time for you to visit my home and have sex with me." I was, needless to say, somewhat disgusted and offended by that completely unsolicited and very presumptuous comment, and I politely declined the invitation from that particular unattractive male adult person. I have not gotten together with that individual on any occasion since then.
Prior to that, the most recent comparable incident I can recall were the repeated interuptions of my attempts to urinate alone, by myself, inside convenience store restrooms by a senior citizen married man from Denver City, Texas, in December 1996. That married man and his wife, a heterosexual adult woman, had very kindly volunteered to help me move my belongings from Denver City, Texas, to Palestine, Texas, in connection with my having accepted a job offer as a full-time reporter for the "Palestine Herald-Press" general-circulation daily newspaper. I was successful at preventing the married man in question from having any sexual contact with me of any type, but I was thoroughly disgusted by the repeated sexual harassment of me he had inflicted on me on several occasions during visits of mine into the men's restroom at several gasoline stations throughout that long road trip from West Texas to East Texas.
Prior to that, the most recent previous incident of that type I can recall was a very surprising moment for me after I entered a bar or restaurant of some type during daytime hours in the small town of Snyder, Texas, in the summer of 1994, either during a period in which I was a full-time reporter for the "Snyder Daily News" general-circulation newspaper or shortly after I had been dismissed from the staff of that newspaepr on good terms. I did not order any alcoholic beverage, and in fact I have been a complete and permanent abstainer from drinking alcohol ever since the late summer of 1990. After I entered the cited bar or restaurant in Snyder, Texas, immediately a male senior citizen stranger approached me and bluntly asked me to have sex with him. I was somewhat disgusted and offended by that sexual proposition that had no context to it at all, and I did politely decline that particular senior citizen's "invitation" to me.
----I myself consistently find that I am much more likely to identify strongly with and agree to associate with law-abiding gentlemen who on an in-person basis prompt me to think of the following words or phrases to describe them: "wholesome," "idealistic," "polite and gentlemanly," "tactfully honest," "philosophically deep," "substantive," "healthy and youthful," "politely aggressive," "independent-minded," "morally strong," "hyigienic," "personable", "affable," "friendly," "cheerful," "optimistic," "cheerful effect on me," "refreshngly non-cynical," "thoughtful," "constructive," "easy to talk with," "good presence," "calming effect on me," "smile-inducing," "natural," "likable," "innovative," "empathetic," etc.
----Throughout my entire adult life, I have consistently found that the adult men whom I myself trusted the most as human beings are the gentlemen who appear to be law-abiding and civil and fully respectful of Freedom of Speech rights for everyone, and who, in addition, verbalize or convey a prevailingly critical vantage point toward the "gay community" that cites specific factual evidence in regard to conduct exhibited by the so-called "gay community" or the so-called "gay subsculture" or in regard to many specified aspects of the so-called "gay-rights movement."
----I myself habitually take the initiative each workday for me to greet many of my coworkers and my work supervisors at each of my workplaces in a friendly and respectful manner on my part, something I have done throughout nearly all of my career.
---I myself have been completely celibate throughout all of my conscious or waking hours anywhere and everywhere in the Austin area of Texas ever since December of 1979. I have resided in Austin proper on a continuous and uninterrupted basis ever since mid-March 1997, most recently.
----I myself emphatically disagree with those who declare (as one male adult resident of Minneapolis, Minnesota, did in a very surprising and completely unsolicited emphatic statement he made to me on the telephone in 1988 or 1989, during a long-distnace phone call I made to his residence from my duplex rental apartment unit in El Campo, Texas) that "All human beings have a deep-seated biological need to have sex with other human beings on a frequent and year-round basis."
----I myself have never at any time advised any other human being (as one male adult resdient of Minneapolis, Minnesota, did with no apparent context to it his unsolicited advice of that type that he volunteered to me from his end of the telephone line in 1988 or 1989, during a long-distance phone call I had made to his Minneapolis private residence from a duplex rental apartment I was renting in El Campo, Texas): "I (the self-identified male adult resident of Minneapolis) recommend that you develop a habit of driving to the nearest big city (Houston) every weekend and picking up a complete stranger inside a bar there each weekend in order to have a one-night stand with a series of new strangers (approximate quote). You could get AIDS that way, but life itself is just a gamble, and it's a gamble worth taking."
----I myself have never stated to any other human being (as one male adult apparent native of Minneapolis, Minnesota, stated to me on the telephone in 1983 or 1984, during a long-distance phone call I made to that individual at his cited private residence in San Francisco, California, from my own private apartment in Minneapolis, Minnesota): "You yourself were always very paranoid about the risk of your getting AIDS in Minneapolis."
----I myself have never been charged by any law-enforcement agency anywhere in the world with any alcohol-related crime or any illicit-drug-related crime on any occasion in my entire life.
---I myself am tactfully honest and conscientious and consistently civil and law-abiding, and I do not have any criminal-conviction record.
----I myself have never at any time ever once replied to a personals ad in a newspaper or magazine (as one apparent resident of the Austin area of Texas did in 1988 or the early 1990s in response to a wholesomely-worded and confidential personals ad of mine in "The Austin Chronicle" alternative weekly newspaper in Austin, Texas), by myself stating (as some person unwknownst to me definitely did in a handwritten letter that that individual wrote and mailed to me care of "The Austin Chronicle" editors and staff in either 1988 or the early 1990s): "If you are who I think you are, I want to break every bone in your body! But if you AREN'T who I think you are, I'd be very interested in getting together with you for a mutually-enjoyable experience" (approximate quote).
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once hosted any dinner party or any social party at which any of the persons who attended that party as guests ever once were observed by me consuming or possessing or selling any quantity of marijuana or any illicit drug of any type at any time during that party.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once stated to anyone that in my own cited role as a social party host or dinner-party host, I would myself permit, or have myself ever at any time permitted, any sexual activity of any type anywhere in the party room or anywhere else on the grounds of the party site.
---I myself am very devoted to crime deterrence, and I have filed hundreds of crime-prevention-minded crime reports with law-enforcement agencies ever since 1979.
In late 1979, I made a 911 lnighttime call to the Naples Police Department in Naples, Florida, to express my own concern about the well-being of a heavyset man I had observed lying on the front seat of his car as I walked past his Cadillac sedan in the parking lot in front of a Naples nightclub.
The man in question, a complete stranger to me whom I myself had never spoken with at any time, appeared to be lying unconscious across the front seat of a Cadillac sedan that was parked in the parking lot of a nightclub in Naples---a nightclub situated near two major highway interections in that southwest Florida city.
The 911 dispatcher responded to my very concerned crime report by laughing on his end of the phone line, and by stating to me that the older man in question was obviously drunk and had passed out, the dispatcher for Naples PD informed me. That same dispatcher indicated to me that there would be no need for any response to my phone report by the Naples Police Department, since the unconscious man in question was obviously drunk, that gentlemanly dispatcher explained to me from his end of the phone line at the Naples PD dispatch center in Naples, Florida.
----I myself habitually file crime reports with law-enforcement agencies about suspicious incidents I observe, this without my ever exempting any person of any cited "sexual-identity group" or of any cited "gender identity group", for that matter, as possible suspects in regard to those criminal-law complaints that I routinely file during my leisuretime.
----I myself very politely chose not to participate in any way, and was myself somewhat repulsed and dismayed, when a cited "break" during a men's poetry group meeting in south Minneapolis, Minnesota, in 1982 or 1981 featured several of the men from that poetry group entering a men's restroom together in that social-services building while stating in advance that they planned to engage in promiscuous sex with one another inside that public restroom as part of their "break" experience during that men's poetry group meeting. That was the last-ever meeting of that men's "poetry group" that I myself can recall having attended.
---I myself never advised anyone (as a male medical physican in a suburb of Minneapolis, Minnesota, emphatically and in a very insulting manner advised me in person in 1982 or so during a medical consultation appointment I had made with him at his suburban medical clinic upon referral from a longtime Minneapolis resident): "Your (John Kevin McMillan's) problem is sex! You need to roll around in the hay more often!" (approximate quote).
----I myself have filed numerous complaints with the Austin Police Department in Austin, Texas, in the multi-year period since 1997, for instance, relating to possible evidence of marijuana-related or other illicit-drug-related activities that I myself have observed in Austin, Texas.
----I myself have either never or almost never referred to police officers as "cops" or "the fuzz" or "pigs" or any other unflattering term for police, it being my emphatic view that any such flippant or slanderous term is disrespectful towared peace officers and their noble mission on behalf of crime deterrence and law-enforcement.
---I myself have worked full-time in Austin, Texas, for three respective government law-enforcement agencies, and I was not fired from any of those three State Government of Texas law-enforcement agency positions of employment that I held for a total of several combined years in the 1990s and the first decade of the 21st Century.
---I take pride in myself being politely aggressive in my overall personal style and personality, and almost never does anyone ever state to me that he or she regards me as being "passive" or "passive-aggressive."
The last person I can current recall who stated to me that he regarded me as being "passive" was Austin-area private attorney Erwin McGee, a Stephen F. Austin High aluumnus and distinguished State Bar of Texas member who met with me inside his private law office in Westlake Hills, Texas, in 1992.
During that two-person consultation meeting that I had myself requested upon referral to private attorney Erwin McGee from the very distinguished State Bar of Texas member and private attorney Fred Niemann of Austin, I repeatedly complained to private attorney McGee about alleged violations of my own privacy rights allegedly occurring in Texas, including in the Austin area, during that time period. Attorney McGee repeatedly emphasized to me during that legal consultation meeting I had with him that he was not aware of ANY violations of my own privacy rights that were at all tangible to himself or at all observable to himself or at all actionable in any way. Attorney Erwin McGee volunteered to me at the end of the two-person meeting as I walked out of his law office that he regarded me as myself being "passive" (exact quote), he said. Mr. McGee does not currently represent me in any way, I might add.
----I myself strongly support a truly comprehensive appraoch to evaluating the overall caliber of human beings, with an emphasis on a wide array of platnically-observable traits such as level of honesty, moral values, personality traits, level of obedience of the law, conversational aptitude, level of philosophical and emotional depth as a human being, level of sincere interest in addressing the broader needs of the city, state, nation, and world in which one lives, level of respect for my own and others' privacy rights, whether that individual strikes me as being a "true gentleman" or a "true lady," speech and locution, level of personability, sense of humor and style of humor exhibited by that individual, physical appearance traits, hygienic traits, etc.
----I myself have almost never been told or informed by any other human being that he regarded me as nyself lacking in self-awareness.
In fact, one apparently friendly adult male resident of Worcester, Massachusets, Paul Williams, a former resident of Connecticut and Clark University undergraduate student at the time, in 1984 or 1985 volunteered to me on the telephone from his and his wife's rental apartment unit in Worcester that Paul Williams had been impressed by what he regarded as my own self-awareness.
Paul Williams of Worcester, Mass., offered me that compliment in the context of the following approximate observation he volunteered to me on the telephone one day in 1984 or 1985: "One thing that separates you (John Kevin McMillan of Worcester, Mass.) from all of the other neurotics I've ever heard about or met is that you yourself are actually aware of being neurotic. I (Paul Williams) find that to be a rather refreshing trait in yourself."
----I myself have been called "conscientious" and "very honest" by others on a frequent basis throughout my life.
In fact, during my youth my biological mother, the very kindly and benevolent Mrs. Phyllis McMillan of Westlake Hills, Texas, on several or more occasions gently stated to me that "You are TOO conscientious, Kevin" (exact quote). More recently, a former schoolmate of mine from Stephen F. Austin High School of Austin Independent School District, the people-friendly Bill Leach of Austin, very kindly volunteered to me on the telephone in the 21st Century that "You (John Kevin McMillan of Austin) are as honest as the day is long!"
----I myself have been told several times this 21st Century by restaurant coworkers of mine and acquaintances of mine in Austin, Texas, either that they would never, or they were inclined not to, invite me to a social party that they expected to host in the future or were in fact hosting that same month, respectively, because I myself am "too straight" for themselves and their friends, they each politely stated to me.
---As a morally and aesthetically straight, facially cleanshaven and handsome teetotaling gentleman, I have repeatedly verbalized my own personal and professional legal goal to numerous private attorneys I have consulted in Texas over a multi-decade period of myself seeking to achieve a significant INCREASE in the number and percentage of my own personal friends and my own professional associates who are, in fact, law-abiding heterosexual men and law-abiding heterosexual women.
----I often find that I myself feel great enjoyment and sublime pleasure as a human being from myself being in the presence of true gentlemen who are masculine or relatively masculine, facially cleanshaven (no facial hair), personable, polite, calm or enthusiastic, youthful, handsome or relatively handsome, male adult men in their 20s or 30s, for instance, and who have good voice modulation or pleasant-sounding voices (not tobacco-scarred voices); and a high percentage of the true gentlemen fitting that description whom I myself enjoy the most overall from ny own vantage point as an observant gentleman, are, in fact, heterosexual or primarily heterosexual in sexual identity per se.
----I have found throughout my entire adult life that a significantly higher percentage of all of the masculine or relatively masculine heterosexual adult men and all of the heterosexual adult women (as distinct from all of the self-identified homosexual male adult persons, all of the self-identified gay adult persons, all of the effeminate male adult persons, all of the self-identified lesbian adult persons, all of the self-identified bisexual adult persons, and all of the self-identified transsexual adult persons, in particular) did not offend me significantly at any time, were pleasant persons to associate with, and showed respect for my own privacy rights.
---I often refer to a younger gentleman I admire as having a "nice personality," it being my belief that an attractive personality in a younger man pervasively enhances that individual's overall presence and level of aesthetic appeal as a human being.
----I would estimate that 99 percent or more of the male adult persons and the female adult persons who are most appropriate as prospective or actual members of the Progressive Prohibitionist Religion, a non-Christian, non-Catholic, non-Unitarian, non-Judaistic, non-Moslem, non-Quaker, non-Shinto-Buddhist, fully independent and non-proselytizing religion that I have myself estalbished, are in fact heterosexual or primarily heterosexual in sexual identity per se.
My Progressive Prohibitionist Religion with very strict membership eligibility requirements is very devoted to helping children and many other young persons under age 30, and to helping parents who are raising children inside their own home or who are themselves raising or helping to raise offspring of theirs under age 30.
---I myself have never told anyone at any time ub my entire life that because of his or her own religious beliefs or conduct as a human being, he or she was at risk of going to hell.
The implicitly deistic non-Christian and one-member (myself, only) Progressive Prohibitionist Religion that I've founded respectfully maintains that the hypothetical existence of an afterlife for human beings upon their own death has never been scientifically proven.
---I myself have never smoked any tobacco product on any occasion in my entire life, and I despise tobacco products.
---I myself consistently use clean or non-misanthropic language in my everyday conversations with others, with the primary noteworthy exception of instances in which I feel a need to quote to a third party a profane or misanthropic or nasty comment that another individual had either verbalized to me or verbalized within earshot of me.
---I myself almost never mutter aloud to myself any nasty or hostile comments about another person that can be overheard by coworkers of mine or work supervisors of mine at my workplace.
When I am walking away from a customer of mine, for instance, I NEVER on any occasion mutter to myself the profane comment, "F-cking (obscenity) a-shole (obscenity)!," which was, in fact, the exact profane comment that I myself in a recent prior year had been victimized by from a waiter assigned to me when I myself during my leisuretime dined alone inside a Marie Callender's chain restaurant near the Arboretum in northwest Austin, Texas. I did politely complain to a manager at that northwest Austin Marie Callender's location about that hostile and obscene conduct, and I appreciated the "profane speech discount" on the check for my meal that I received from a manager at that restaurant after I very politely and very accurately complained to that manager that I found it degrading and very unpleasant to hear my assigned waiter muttering "F-cking (obscenity) a-shole (obscenity)!" immediately as he walked away from my dining table after I had politely placed my order with that waiter from my assigned dining table. I found it very disappointing that when I later complained online about that incident to corporate headquarters officials for Marie Callender's restaurant chain in southern California, I did not receive any apology letter of any type from the corporate headquarters for Marie Callender's.
---I myself revere and strongly support the legal right and Constitutional right of any human being, including myself, to guide himself in his own personal life and overal life partly based on personal and aesthetic and philosophical aversions and antipathies and prejudices of any type that he himself experiences toward other human beings, with the clear understanding that his own observable conduct per se (as distinct from his privacy-rights-protected internal thought process per se, for instance) should always be diligently law-abiding in nature.
---I myself emphatically oppose any and all thought-control projects aimed at censoring the political or religious beliefs or personal beliefs or philosophical beliefs of any person in any way, my own very emphatic view being that any American citizen should enjoy the legal and Constitutional right to have any internal thoughts or prejudices that he wishes, provided that his own observable external conduct is law-abiding in nature.
---I myself emphatically reject the view that a person who hates or despises myself, for instance, is on that cited basis "guilty of a hate crime."
It is very apparent to me that no hate crime has occurred until such time as the individual who dislikes or despises myself, John Kevin McMillan of northwest Austin in this capital city of Texas, U.S.A., himself pursues an observable action, such as through his attempting to poison me or his ordering or paying someone to pursue, or through himself pursuing, a hypothetical home invasion into my own bolt-locked private residence that is also accompanied by alleged personal injury of any type to myself by that assailant which also wrongs me and expresses hatred of me based in part on the assailant's perception of me as being white or as myself being the founder and sole current member of a non-Christian alcohol-free and anti-marijuana religion with very strict membership eligibility requirements, the Progressive Prohibitionist Religion----personal injury crimes victimizing myself that also, I might add, flagrantly violate the state penal code of Texas and may possibly comprise a federal offense as well.
---I myself fully support the legal right and Constitutional right of any American citizen to himself or herself lawfully and in a civil manner refuse to participate in any inter-racial dating or any inter-ethnic dating, even, if he or she so chooses, any such major lifestyle decision being strictly his own prerogative, and on that basis a self-identified white Anglo gentleman of British and German ancestry, for instance, should therefore enjoy the full legal and Constitutional right at all times to himself politely decline to have ANY carnal relations of any type that would involve himself with ANY person who is of Far East Asian ancestry, ANY person of Indonesian ancestry, ANY person of African ancestry, ANY person of Asian Indian ancestry, etc.
---I myself have a very high capacity for affectionate strictly-platonic personal relationships with a wide range of people, including individuals who are (and it is only a tiny percentage, obviously, who fit that description) actually attractive to me.
---I myself have never been told by anyone or informed by anyone on any occasion in my entire adult life that "at your workplace, you tend to snub and ignore and act unfriendly toward the male adult heterosexual coworkers of yours and the male adult heterosexual work supervisors of yours."
This aspect of my own conduct record in my own career poses a sharp contrast to the conduct observed by a self-identified heterosexual adult single man whom I met for the first time ever in 1983 or 1984 while each of us was waiting for a municipal bus to pick each of us up in southeast Minneapolis in the U.S. state of Minnesota.
That gentleman's politely stated verbal complaint to me in 1983 or 1984 was that "as a heterosexual male waiter in a downtowh Chinese restaurant where most of the other waiters are gay, I have found that all of my gay male coworkers of mine ignore me and treat me like a non-entity. They are unfriendly toward me, and they socialize with one another at the workplace. It's demoralizing to be treated like a nobody at my workplace based on my being a heterosexual gentleman." (approximate quote).
---I myself NEVER in my entire life have ever on any occasion stated to any other human being that "I regard that male adult person as being a 'closet case'" or "that male adult person who says he's straight is actually a closeted gay person."
I strongly support the legal right and human right of each adult human being to decide for himself his own prevailing or predominant sexual identity, if he chooses to ever have any publicly cited sexual identity of any type. I also emphatically reject the gay-argot terms "closet case" and "closeted," it being my own very mpahtic view that the gay subculture in its pathological overemphasis on "sex" and "sexuality" and its contempt for and defiance of exclusively-platonic mutual-consent personal relationships, is actually one of the most repressively "closeting" subcultures in all of American history.
I am reminded that one self-identified "gay" male professor at The University of Texas at Austin did volunteer to me in person in 1986 inside the Magnolia Cafe restaurant along Riverside Drive in Austin, this in an unsolicited disclosure to me from that gay male professor, that a cited older male colleague of his from the same academic department, a colleague of his who was in fact married to and living with a heterosexual woman at the time, was, in the stated view of that "gay" professor, "possibly a repressed homosexual," or words to that effect.
That unsolicited "oral evaluation" of the cited colleague of a gay male UT-Austin professor was volunteered to me by the later individual in the context of his volunteering to me that the cited male colleague of his in the History Department at UT-Austin was decidedly aloof and unfriendly toward that particular self-identified gay male professor.
----I myself never stated to another human being, as one male adult resident of south Minneapolis stated to me in a completely unsolicited comment he made a matter of seconds after he observed a self-identified heterosexual adult male coworker of mine who had just made a friendly and cheerful mutual-consent visit to me inside my apartment unit in Minneapolis in 1982: "Give him time! (exact quote). If you keep up with him, I feel sure that he'll prove to be a hot number for you in the bedroom someday!" (approximate quote). I myself never at any time in my entire life ever once stated to anyone anywhere in the entire world that I myself sought to have sexual contact of any type or a sexual romantic involvement of any type with the cited male adult heterosexual gentleman; I had, instead, praised his cheerful and wholesome personal style.
---I myself strongly support the legal and human right of any and all human beings to lead a completely celibate and unmolested as well as uninjured lifestyle on a permanent and year-round basis, including at all times during any and all periods in which those human beings are sleeping alone on their own bed inside their bolt-locked private residence.
---I myself verbalize frequent and honest or tactfully honest praise of a significant share of the individuals whom I agree to associate with during that time period, whether during working hours for me at a workplace or during my leisuretime.
----I myself have NEVER or almost never in my adult life ever at any time professed to love any other human being during a multi-month period in which I myself failed to myself verbalize several or numerous specific words of praise for that particular human being and several or numerous specific words of significant appreciation for and significant admiration toward the individual whom I professed to love during that particular time period.
---I myself have NEVER or almost never in my adult life ever at any time professed to love any other human being during a multi-month period in which I wrote and mailed numerous "personal letters" to that same individual that either never or almost never included the pronoun "you" in any of those "personal" and "heartfelt" letters from myself.
---I myself have NEVER stated to another person at any time in my own life that I find it difficult to converse with the vast majority of the human beings I encountered, since those conversations reminded me of how intellectually superior I myself was to themselves, and how very, very dificult it was for me to communicate with someone of that cited lower level of intelligence.
----I myself have never stated to anyone at any time, as one self-identified Rice University alumnus did in fact state to me in 1995 in person inside a cafe or restaurant in the Houston area of Texas, that "Because of your own very low socioeconomic status, none of the alumni from my alma mater (Rice University in Bellaire, Texas, in the case of the cited male adult alumnus who made that very surprising comment to myself, John Kevin McMillan, in 1995, after I politely mentioned to him during that lunch meeting we had together that I myself was employed full-time during that time period as a full-time sports reporter for "The Baytown Sun" daily newspaper in Baytown, Texas) would be at all interested in meeting with you or ever becoming friends with you" (approximate quote).
----I myself have never stated to any other human being (as University of Texas at Austin study-skills instructor Arthur Rauch on his own initiative volunteered to me during a two-person lunch meeting I had with Mr. Rauch in 1988 inside a locally owned Chinese restaurant a few blocksnorth of the UT-Austin campus): "You (John Kevin McMillan) should move to San Francisco, California, since that city would be better than Austin for your own intellectual development" (approximate quote, with the term 'intellectual development' being an exact quote).
----I myself emphatically reject the view of some Americans that self-identified intellectual elitists, those who claim to have "superiority" over other human beings based on the former individuals' cited "keen intellect" or "high intelligence quotient," should be permitted to harass or subjugate or censor the views and conduct of those who are NOT elitists in that way.
---I myself never deliberately brush up against or deliberately bump into or deliberately collide with or deliberately initiate any type of physical contact with, any coworker or work supervisor of mine inside or anywhere on the grounds of any of my workplaces, with the only two total exceptions to that being when I occasionally extend my hand for a polite handshake with a new coworker of mine or a new work supervisor of mine, and when I occasionally and gently tap a coworker or work supervisor on his or her shoulder in order to get their attention inside the workplace during working hours for myself and that individual.
---I n my entire life, I myself have never had mutual-consent sexual contact of any type between myself and any current or former coworker of mine, the only exception to that having been one total incident in Minneapolis, Minnesota, in the year 1982 that occurred on one total occasion involving myself and one total Roman Catholic-identified adult coworker of mine.
---I myself have never been fired from any job because the work supervisor stated to me or indicated to me that I myself had allegedly sexually harassed or harassed a coworker of mine.
However, a male editor of mine at the "Victoria Advocate" daily newspaper in Victoria, Texas, did state to me in the summer or fall of 1991 that I was fired from my full-time job as a Cuero-beat reporter for the "Victoria Advocate" because I had allegedly called once too often to the home of a male high school student tennis player in order to myself politely ask the mother of that household if her teenage son would be willing to rally with me on a public tennis court in Cuero, Texas.
My polite response to the editor who fired me from my regional-beat reporting job for the "Victoria Advocate" daily newspaper was that I had been very careful not to call the Cuero home of that teenage male youth after his mother informed me on the telephone that he was no longer on the varsity tennis team at Cuero High, and that he was instead pursuing and emphasizing pursuit of varsity football for Cuero High during that time period, she indicated to me on the phone in the summer of 1991.
I also mentioned to the heavyset male editor at "The Victoria Advocate"who had fired me from my reporting job that my personal index card containing a list of tennis players in Cuero, Texas, specifically contained a scratch-out I had made on that card of the name of the cited former varsity tennis player for Cuero High who was now pursuing varsity football instead. I myself never met that individual on any occasion, and I don't believe that I ever spoke with hin on any occasion, either, since my phone call to that Cuero family's home exclusively involved one phone conversation I can recall having had with that male youth's mother.
I also respectfully pointed out to the "Victoria Advocate" daily newspaper editor who had fired me that in the city of Cuero, Texas, the vast majority of all the talented tennis players whom I myself learned about through phone calls I made in the summer of 1991 during my leisuretime were high school students in Cuero, Texas. I might add that I did, in fact, reach the semifinals of a citywide tennis tournament in Cuero, Texas, in the summer of 1991, and I was an intermediate-level tennis player during that time period.
---I myself never made a deliberately false or fraudulent report or prank phone call to a work supervisor of anyone that was aimed at triggering the dismissal of that individaul from his position of employment.
In that regard, I myself was myself victimized by a false report prank phone call in early 1990 that my managing editor at the "Big Spring Herald" daily newspaper in Big Spring, Texas, reportedly received from an apparent resident of or visitor to Stanton, Texas. That anonymous prank-phone call about myself reportedly alleged to that primary work supervisor of mine, Mr. Steve Ray, that I myself had allegedly participated in shockingly illegal pederastic sex wtih a male Hispanic teenage varsity tennis player from Stanton High School----alleged pederastic sex that allegedly occurred at a booth-style dining table , this allegedly in full view of other customers, inside a Dairy Queen chain restaurant in Stanton, Texas, on a cited day in early 1990.
My own very accurate and very honest reply to the allegation----an allegation that managing editor Steve Ray had orally presented to me in the newsroom of the "Big Spring Herald" with visible anger toward me on his part------was that I had, in fact, conducted a polite feature interview with the cited Hispanic male youth inside a Dairy Queen chain restaurant in Stanton, Texas, during the late afternoon time period on the cited day in early 1990.
I also emphasized to Steve Ray that my own involvement with the Hispanic male youth in question, whom I had never met before I interviewed him inside a Dairy Queen restaurant, had been strictly limited to my interviewing that varsity tennis player for a planned feature story about his success as a tennis player that I had been assigned to write for the "Big Spring Herald" daily newspaper. Nor did I ever at any time associate with the male youth in question in any context other than the one total job-related interview I politely conducted with him inside a Dairy Queen chain restaurant in Stanton, Texas, in early 1990.
However, the prank phone call to "Big Spring Herald" by an anonymous "tipster" appeared to have significantly undermined my work supervisors' level of confidence in me during a multi-month period in whcih I also learned for the first time, much to my surprise, that the "Big Spring Herald"newspaper was reportedly owned by a for-profit corporation headquartered in the foreign nation of Canada---a country that I myself have never visited.
A few months after that prank phone call false allegation against myself, I was abruptly fired from my job at "The Big Spring Herald". The dismissal of myself occurred in the spring of 1990 a matter of hours after I officially cited myself as a VICTIM of alleged crime in a polite visit I made to the Big Spring Police Department in Big Spring, Texas----a visit to Big Spring police headquarters that I made only upon prior legal advice form the first-rate private attoreny Drew Mouton of Big Spring----in which Big Spring police agreed to photograph mysterious scars on my own body I had discovered inside my bolt-locked duplex-apartment unit in connection with the criminal-law complaint I filed that day.
----I myself am frequently told by others that they regard me as being "friendly" or "kind" or "nice" or "sweet" or "very sweet'" or "polite," with some of my coworkers having repeatedly referred to me as being "Mr. Goody Two Shoes."
---I myself emphasize strictly-platonic and strictly-mutual-consent personal relationships not involving any physical contact beyond an occasional polite and mutual-consent handshake.
---I myself strongly identify with biological parents raising children in their own household, and I strive to befriend children and teenage youths in my own way as well, such as through helpful and educational blogs that I write that offer constructive and wholesome ideas for children and teenage youths.
---I myself have found throughout my life that a higher percentage of all the adult men and all the adult women who have a calming effect or cheerful effect on me and have a good and emotionally inspirational and salutary emotional impact on me as a human being are, in fact, heterosexual in sexual identity per se.
----I myself have never stated to any other human being in my entire adult life that I myself dislike children.
I have, in fact, volunteered on five separate occasions, both officially in the "Big Brother" program and unofficially through an informal referral I agreed to, to myself serve as a male adult friend seeking to befriend an 8-year-old male youth or 9-year-old male youth. I did this during periods in which I resided in and reported for a general-circulation newspaper in New Ulm, Minnesota; El Campo, Texas; Sweetwater, Texas; and Denver City, Texas.
I take pride in the fact that when one Hispanic male youth whom I befriended in that way volunteered to me in 1988 or 1989 that he wanted to become a police officer someday, I immediately volunteered to that male youth, Marco, that I would gladly drive him to the El Campo Police Department headquartrers in El Campo, Texas, so that Marco could speak with a police officer there about Marco's cited career ambition int he field of law-enforcement. That male youth, as it turned out, declined my offer, with Marco explaining, much to my surpiise, that he was afraid at that time that the El Campo police would arrest Marco on a criminal charge of some type if Marco were to speak with a police officer there. I fully honored Marco's request that I not drie him to the El Campo Police headquarters in El Campo, Texas.
One mother of a male youth whom I befriended as his unofficial "Big Brother" in 1996 in Denver City, Texas, did tell me several years ago this 21st Century on the telephone that I had been a big inspiration to her son, Brandon, and that Brandon had exceled in his academic pursuits at public schools in Denver City, Texas, partly because I myself. John Kevin McMillan of Denver City, Texas, had been a benevolent and healthy influence on Brandon in the year 1996, Mrs. Campbell kindly told me on the telephone.
----When I have voted in elections that featured a school bond issue, I myself have never once in my entire life ever on any occasion voted against any proposed bond issue that would benefit a local public school district by helping to fiannce first-rate educational programs and first-rate educational services from that public school district.
---I myself never refer to biological parents as "breeders," and I never criticize any parent for having fathered or given birth to a child, though I sometimes do note to myself or others that the global overpopulation problem is very severe, so that it generally makes sense for married couples these days to limit themselves to two children per household. I also do note to myself on occasion that parents who are low-income may not be able to take good care of an additional baby in their household, which can comprise a form of child abuse when that child is subjected to malnourishment and other substandard living conditions.
---I myself have often expressed great gratitude toward my biological parents, Mrs. Phyllis Delores Gardner McMillan and Dr. Calvin McMillan, for having made my own life possible through the procreational heterosexual intercourse in which they jointly participated in the privacy of their own home as part of their marriage together during the multi-year period when they resided together in Lincoln, Nebraska; and I myself respectfully question the logic of any person who repeatedly complains about "breeders" or "hets," as he may also call them, and then fails to frequently note that he is very, very grateful for the procreational heterosexual intercourse by two heterosexual adult persons, a man and a woman, that made his own human life possible.
---I myself have never stated to anyone at any time that I myself condone or support alleged "abandonment" of a biological offspring by a biological parent shortly after that parent concluded that that parent himself or herself was homosexual or bisexual or lesbian or expectedly transsexual in sexual or gender identity per se.
---I myself have almost never been told by any other human being that I myself exhibited "fear of women" or "misogyny" or unjustifiable antipathy toward heterosexual men or toward heterosexual women, in particular, and no person from my own life whom I can recall has ever at any time criticized me for being allegedly "heterophobic" or an alleged "straight-basher" in my own beliefs and values.
---During my adult years, I myself in verbal conversations with any other person have never (as one University of Minnesota male adult Mathematics Department employee in 1983 and 1984 repeatedly himself did in unsolicited comments he made to me in Minneapolis during his leisuretime, with that male adult native of Minnesota on his own volition repeatedly denouncing a cited former female editor in chief of "The Minnesota Daily", herself a woman by the first name of "Allison" whom I myself have never met in my entire life and whom I myself assume to be a very fine lady, as someone whom he himself intensely disliked, that University of Minnesota Math department emlpoyee habitually emphasized to me in 1983 or 1984) habitually referred to a cited woman as being someone whom I personally dislike or despise.
----I myself never at any time in my life ever habitually and repeatedly labeled women as "bitches," as one male UT-Austin student, himself a next-door neighbor of mine in Prather Dormitory on the campus of The University of Texas at Austin, frequently did in a very loud voice that I repeatedly heard from the dorm room where I lived in the fall semester of 1977.
---I myself NEVER lay a hand on any other human being with impropriety or incivility. In particular, I NEVER pinch any other human being. I NEVER goose or stroke the behind of any other human being. I NEVER caress the body of any other human being during periods in which I am on duty as an employee at a workplace. I NEVER grab or pounce on the body of any other human being.
----In my entire life, I can recall only one total occasion when any other person directly stated to me me that I was myself standing too close to himself or herself.
That one total occasion I can recall occurred earlier this 21st Century in a context in which I was not aware of myself having stood "too close" to the cited work supervsior of mine inside one of my workplaces in the Austin area of Texas.
It's also noteworthy that numerous persons throughout my entire life have stated to me that "you (John Kevin McMillan) are standing too far away from me" (approximate quote). Those persons included Mrs. Tenney (sp?), a sixth grade teacher of mine at Eanes Elementary School in Westlake Hillls, Texas., who repeatedly stated to me during writing classes of hers I attended in sixth grade that I was standing too far from her whenever I approached her upon her request at a time when she was seated at her teacher's desk inside her Eanes Elementary School classroom. "Come closer, John, " Mrs. Tenney habitually advised me from her desk.
I am a firm believer in giving other human beings plenty of physical space, and in not being overly intrusive toward anyone.
---I myself NEVER deliberately stare at the crotch or midsection of another male person with a predatory or cruel or intense expression on my face.
---I myself have almost never been told by any other human being that he or she suspected that I myself was guilty of "cruising" another human being, or staring at another human being in a sexually predatory manner, on a cited occasion in my entire life.
The only incident of that type I can currently recall was a very surprising moment for me in 2003 during my tenure as a restaurant waiter at IHOP Duval chain restaurant in northwest Austin in the U.S. state of Texas. I was suddenly informed one evening by a coworker of mine in 2003 in the middle of a workshift of mine at IHOP Duval restaurant that a father seated with his family inside that chain restaurant had complained that I myself had allegedly glanced with excessive adoration towrad, or in an allegedly sexually predatory manner toward, an underage biological son of that adult male customer that evening.
The adult male IHOP Duval guest in question reportedly accused me of having "cruised" his underage son, according to a candid IHOP Duval coworker of mine who helpfully informed me about the cited informal allegation against me by the father in question that evening. I myself did politely resopnd to the male adult guest's "cruising" allegation against me by assuring a work supervisor of mine at IHO Duval that I had definitely NOT deliberately glanced at the male youth in question in a deliberately or knowingly predatory manner on my part.
----In my entire life, I myself have never once failed to wear underwear of some type when I reported for work at any of my places of employment.
This aspect of my own conduct record poses a sharp contrast to conduct I observed in the last few years by a male adult person pursuing stocking duties while on duty inside an H.E.B. chain supermarket near Braker Lane and Research Boulevard in northwest Austin. Whenever that male adult person stooped or bent low, I as a customer shopping for food in that same section of the supermareket was immediately exposed against my wishes to an alarming view of that older man's naked behind. He was not wearing any underwear, and I promptly reported his alleged impropriety to a manager on duty. That female manager promised me she would immediately take action to put a stop to the alleged "mooning" incidents by the cited male person on duty inside that supermarket.
----I myself have NEVER at any time ever once on my own initiative grabbed and pulled on the zipper of another human being's trousers or slacks and then myself unzipped, or begun to unzip, that individual's fly.
---When I use the restroom inside a public building, I myself NEVER glance at or stare at the penis or face of any other male person who at that time is himself either urinating or preparing to urinate at a urinal that is situated next to or near the urinal where I myself am urinating inside that public restroom. I ALWAYS direct my own gaze away from the urinal where the other male person is urinating at the time.
---When I use the restroom inside a public building, I ALWAYS zip up my trousers or slacks while I am still facing the urinal I am standing in front of, or while I am still situated inside the locked toilet stall.
I regard it as vulgar and obscenely exhibitionistic for a male adult person to zip up his slacks in any context that might be directly observable by any other male person inside that same public restroom. The only exceptions to this "zip up my slacks while facing the urinal or while inside the locked toilet stall" policy of mine have been absent-minded moments, such as when I was rushing to walk to the sink and wash my hands before quickly exiting the restroom, and in no case that I can currently recall was my own male organ (or any of my own pubic hairs, for that matter) ever directly observable to any other person inside that restroom when I zipped up my slacks as I walked from a urinal to the sink of the restroom in order to wash my hands.
---While I am using the urinal in a men's restroom inside a public building, I habitually use one of my hands to hold up the back side of my slacks to ensure that no other male person inside that restroom might be subjected to any view of the top portion of my underwear. I take pride in NOT "flashing" anyone else inside a public restroom by myself ever revealing any portion of my own undewear.
---I myself have never on any occasion and never at any time in my entire life ever once had sex with any other human being inside a public restroom --- or inside a private restroom, for that matter.
----I myself have never on any occasion ever directly stated to any other person inside a public restroom that I myself wanted to have sex with that individual.
In regard to what other persons have subjected me to inside a public restroom, I vividly recall that in 1984 or 1985, I very abruptly and successfully fled from a public restroom at Penn Central Station in New York City, New York. I did that after I was very alarmed to note as I began to enter that public restroom that several hungry-looking and emaciated older male adult persons inside that restroom were either staring at my crotch in a predatory manner or were using their own hand to apparently "play" with their own penis in front of a urinal without any indication that they were actually URINATING at the urinal where they stood. Because I felt sexually harassed by those sickly-looking older male adult persons inside that public restroom, I was effectively denied access to a public restroom at that time, even though I definitely had a need to actually urinate at that time. I then boarded a train bound for Philadelphia, and I was able to safely urinate inside a men's restroom on that train.
My only consolation from that very frightening and very traumatic experience for me at Penn Central Station in New York City was that NONE of the male adult perosns in question ever at any time had any physical contact with me or any sexual contact with me at any time during the multi-second period in which I briefly entered and been very briefly inside that public restroom. I take pride in having limited my visit into that restroom to 15 seconds or less, which may well have saved my own life, in fact.
----I myself have never in my entire life ever once scribbled any profane or obscene message, or any non-obscene message, for that matter, on the wall of a toilet stall or anywhere else on the property inside any public restroom anywhere in the world.
----I myself have never at any time stated to another human being (as a University of Texas at Austin undergraduate male adult English major confessed to me in 1979 or possibly in 1986 during an in-person conversation he had with me in Austin, Texas) that "my (that UT-Austin student's) own raison d'etre is my very intense desire to shock others on a frequent and year -round basis, and punk rock music and my punk lifestyle provide me with a perfect outlet for frequent desire to shock everyone else!" (approximate quote).
---I myself have never stated to any other human being on any occasion in my entire life that I regard a cited person as being "queer". Nor have I ever at any time in my entire life ever once referred to any group as being a "queer group." Nor have I ever at any time referred to a cited "queer nation" on any occasion in my entire life.
I very emphatically reject the vulgar and pathologically oversexed as well as very disrespectful term "queer" in verbal or written references to one or more persons' sexual identity per se. In other contexts, such as when referring to a person whose conduct is very odd or peculiar in a conversation I am having with someone, I also generally refrain from verbalizing the word "queer" to describe that person or his conduct.
---I myself have never once referred to any self-identified "heterosexual" person as being "straight," it being my emphatic personal and religious view that no person is truly straight unless he is also confirmed as being law-abiding and honest and conscientious and vigilant.
----I myself emphatically reject the "straight versus gay" paradigm that pervades the worldview of many of the self-identified "gay" persons. I regard any such cited paradigm as simplistic and very misleading.
----I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever on any occasion declined to patronize a cited business based on my pwm perception that the owner of that business or the manager of that business or one or more cited employees of that business were heterosexual per se in sexual identity.
---I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever on any occasion declined to myself vote for a candidate for elective office primarily because that individual had a cited "critical vantage point" toward the so-called gay community or the so-called "gay rights" movement.
---I myself have never at any time drilled or created any hole into the wall of a toilet stall in a public restroom in a manner that made it possible for another male person situated in an adjoining toilet stall to then either stare into my own toilet stall or subject me to his own naked phallus protruding through that hole into my own toilet stall at a time when I myself was situated in that public restroom toilet stall.
----I myself have NEVER stated to another person (as a self-identified Jewish man with a PhD in Economics, he said, did himself confess to me in 1985 inside a Pizzeria Uno chain restaurant in Boston, Massachusetts) that one of my own cited "favorite" lifestyle practices is to myself participate in anonymous sex with a wide variety of male persons inside public restrooms in the cited urban area or city.
----I myself have never recommended to anyone or advised anyone in my entire life, as a "Daily Texan" student newspaper male adult coworker of mine did to me inside the newsroom of the University of Texas System-owned public university campus in Austin in 1978, and as a male adult resident of Minneapolis, Minnesota, did to me in 1982, respectively, that "You (John Kevin McMillan of Austin, Texas, and Minneapolis, Minnesota, respectively) need to separate sex from your emotions. If you feel an emotional affinity toward the person you are having sex with, that ruins everything."
I might also note that the cited Minneapolis male adult person advised me in addition that "I recommend that you (John Kevin McMillan of Minneapolis) develop a relationship with a 'f-ck buddy' (obscene term, with the missing letter in the first word of that term being a 'u') that is completely devoid of any emotional attachment or sentiment between either of you. I (the cited Minneapolitan older man) lead that type of lifestyle myself, and it simplifies my life. I recommend that you do the same."
-----I myself have never in my entire life ever on any occasion infected any other human being with any sexually transmitted disease.
---I myself have never in my entire life ever contracted any confirmed sexually transmitted disease at any time in the last 32 years.
---I myself have never lied to anyone about whether I myself had a sexually transmitted disease of any type.
----I myself have never stated to any self-identified prospective dating partner for myself (as several persons have each emphatically stated to me through the years) that I myself declined or refused to provide that prospective dating partner with fully up-to-date and reliable medical test results for myself, indicaitng that I myself am, inf act, HIV-negative and free of sexually transmitted disases as well.
---I myself am currently HIV-negative and STD-free, according to the most recent reliable medical tests which I obtained for myself inside my first-rate primary-care physician's medical clinic in Austin, Texas, on May 7, 2013. Also, I plan to be routinely tested again about six months from now when I am able to find the time to do so and I can afford to pay for those medical tests on myself.
----I myself strongly support the legal and human right of any and all HIV-negative persons to associate fully and extensively with numerous other HIV-negative persons, this being one component of a very justifiable and urgently-needed HIV-Negative Adult Persons' Human Rights Movement in the United States of America.
=---I myself have never indicated or stated to any other human being (as one self-identified male adult person in Austin, Texas, reportedly confessed to a personal friend of his, from what I was later told about in the year 1999 in a disclosure to me by the latter individual which occurred in the outdoor patio of the Little City coffeehouse along Guadalupe Street several blocks north of the main campus of the University of Texas Austin) that "I (the adult male person in question) seek to have unprotected sex with HIV-positive persons".
---I have voluntarily chosen to obtain fully reliable HIV-virus-test results and STD results for myself on a frequent basis, an average of twice per year, for the last several decades of my own life, it being my view that I need to have fully reliable test results containing my full legal name and birthdate that show my accountability to any adult prospective dating partner my age or younger (I myself would NEVER agree to date or have carnal relations of any type with anyone older than myself by more than one year) for myself being HIV-negative and STD-free at all times.
---I myself am almost never told by or informed by any other human being that a statement I verbalized to him or her was a "lie" or "prevarication" on my own part.
---I myself am not a habitual liar or a pathological liar, and I have NEVER been told by any other human being in my entire life that he or she regarded me as being a "pathological liar." To the contrary, one work supervisor of mine at one of my restaurant workplaces stated to me several years ago that I am "legendary for your (John McMillan's) honesty" among work supervisors of that paticular restaurant chain in the Austin area of Texas.
----I myself have NEVER advised anyone at any time in my entire life (as one male adult person in Minneapolis, Minnesota, in 1983 or 1984 very emphatically advised me on his own initiative tto myself do) to myself "lie" my own resume, or to myself tell frequent and flagrant lies about my own career-realte background and job-related skills and credentials during job interviews that I attended in conneciton with my having applied for a position of employment.
---I myself have never pulled a prank on any other human being on any occasion in my entire life. I am very opposed to pranksterism and criminal mischief.
---I myself have almost never on any occasion in my entire life ever at any time written and mailed or E-mailed to any other human a communication or letter or note to another human being or to a group of human beings that failed to cite my own legal name, either "John Kevin McMillan" or "John McMillan," as the author of that written communication.
----I myself have never at any time attempted to "doctor" or contaminate any food or beverage that I was myself either serving to another human being or that I was myself having served to another human being.
----I myself have never at any time either attempted to poison or knowingly poisoned the bloodstream of any other human being on any occasion.
---I myself have almost never on any occasion in my entire life ever once been seriously told by any other human being that he or she regarded me as being "vindictive" or "ruthless" or "vicious" or "capricious" or "whim-prone," with one noteworthy exception.
One exception to that was the very surprising and baffling comment made to me on the telephone in 1991, during a long-distance phone call I made at my own expense from my one-bedroom rental apartment unit in Sweetwater, Texas, to the private residence of an older relative of mine in the Austin area. In the middle of that phone conversation, that older male relative of mine surprised me by volunteering with no apparent context to his comment that he regarded me as being "vicious" (exact quote).
I had not verbalized any threat to that individual or to anyone else, from what I can recall, at any time during that entire long-distance phone conversation, though I probably indicated concerns of mine about alleged violations of my own privacy rights in Sweetwater, Texas, during that 1991 phone conversation.
----I myself have almost never been informed by anyone at any time that an observer of myself suspected or believed that I myself might somehow be capable of ANY act of physical violence against ANY other human being.
The only exceptions to that which I can currently recall were the following:
(a) One heavyset older woman employed as a nighttime security guard stationed in the front loby of "The Baytown Sun" daily newspaper office in the Houston area of Texas, alleged in 1995 to editor work supervisors of mine at that general-circulation daily newspaper in Baytown, Texas, that I myself allegedly "banged on my desk" and allegedly "banged on my computer terminal" on an allegedly repeated basis during time periods at night time when I was myself attempting to quickly write a news story about a varsity high school football game that I had attended earlier that evening in order to then myself report on that varsity football game in my assigned role as one of two sports reporters for "The Baytown Sun."
In my reply to the female security guard's allegation against me, I am fairly sure that I did point out that no property damage resulted from the allegedly loud "banging" incidents at my workdesk inside the "Baytown Sun" daily newspaper newsroom, and that I would strive in the future to be very, very quiet myself whenever I wrote about future varsity football games of the Robet E. Lee High School Ganders squad from Baytown, Texas.
(b) Two or more middle-aged female paying customers inside IHOP 290 restaurant in 2010 or 2011 repeatedly complained to a work supervisor of mine, Mr. Jed Cecil, then the general manager of IHOP 290 chain restaurant situated along East Koening Lane near Interstate Highway 35 in north Austin, that they each regarded myself, John Kevin McMillan, a cited waiter inside IHOP Duval, as allegedly either being a "serial killer" as of that time, or as allegedly being capable of allegedly becoming a "serial killer" in the foreseeable future, each of those middle-aged female guests in IHOP 290 reportedly stated to General Manager Jed Cecil.
No factual evidence against me on behalf of those "customer perceptions" by two or three female paying guests in IHOP 290 chain restaurant was ever presented at any time.
However, Mr. Cecil did state to me that the female guests in IHOP 290 restaurant who verbalized that perception of me regarded me as having an "eerie" or "odd" aura or presence to me that was alarming to those two or three cited ladies.
In my defense, I did politely point out to General Manager Jed Cecil during working horus for me inside IHOP 290 chain restaurant in 2010 or 2011 that it would be impossible for me to be a serial killer, since I have never once ever on any occasion murdered even one person in my entire life. I am NEITHER a killer nor a serial killer, I politely explained to Mr. Jed Cecil during working hours for me inside IHOP 290 restaurant.
(c) One African-American female coworker of mine at the Texas Board of Pardons and Paroles state agency workplace in December of 2000 volunteered to me during a workshift there for each of us that a photograph of me that had been taken by a coworker of ours during a Holiday Season office party held inside that state agency workplace along Shoal Creek Boulevard in northwest Austin, "shows you (John Kevin McMillan) with a weird smile that makes you (coworker John Kevin McMillan) look like a mass murderer!" (approximate quote).
I believe that I did attempt to assure that female coworker of mine that I myself am civil and law-abiding, and that I definitely have never myself committed the act of "mass murder" on any occasion in my entire life. It also should have been very apparent to that female
African-American coworker of mine that the extensive criminal-background check on me that was in fact conducted in connection with my being hired by that state agency in Austin, Texas, would have prevented me from being hired by that state agency if that background check had uncovered any record of my having ever at any time been convicted of the heinous and barbarous felony crime of mass homicide.
---I myself have never been informed by any person at any time that he or she suspected me of having any alleged ties of my own to the Mafia or to any other organized crime group. Nor do I have any ties to any organized crime group; nor would I ever agree to have any ties to any organized crime group.
This aspect of my own law-abiding record as a human being presents a very sharp contrast to repeated in-person oral confessions I received in 2010 and 2011 from a single adult male work suprvisor of mine during periods in which I was on duty as a waiter at IHOP 290 chain restaurant situated along East Koening Lane just west of Intersetate Highway 35 in Austin, Texas.
That work supervisor of mine, Mr. Jed Cecil, a single male adult person and Jewish man who was my general manager at IHOP 290 chain restaurant, volunteered to me on several occasions in 2010 and 2011 during workshifts of mine inside that chain restaurant workplace for me that Jed Cecil had previously worked in New Jersey at a nightclub owned and operated by the Mafia, he repeatedly chose to volunteer to me during working hours for me as a waiter for IHOP 290 restaurant in north Austin.
"My (Jed Cecil's) best friend in New Jersey was a Mafia hit man," the same head work supervisor of mine, Jed Cecil, stated to me on his own volition on several occasions in 2010 and 2011 during workshifts of mine as a waiter at IHOP 290 chain restaurant in Austin, Texas.
----I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever once stated to any other person that I myself sought to exact "revenge" against any cited person or any cited group of persons.
---I myself have either never or almost never been told by any other human being that he or she regards me as being either cruel or sadistic.
However, some individuals have accused me of being "mean" because, they indicated, I had myself reported factual evidence of alleged impropriety by a coworker of mine to a work supervisor of mine at a workplace of mine.
Also, one tennis opponent of mine in a 1983 or 1984 singles tennis match, Yale University alumnus and "Minnesota Daily" student newspaper colleague Peter Kizilos, did emphatically state to me in 1983 or 1984, seconds after I had defeated him 6-0, 6-0, or possibly 6-1, 6-1, in a seemingly friendly singles tennis match on a tennis court owned by the University of Minnesota in Minneapolis: "You (John Kevin McMillan) don't care who you hurt to get to the top!" (an exact or near-exact quote).
---I myself have been told by other human beings on dozens of occasions in my own life that one of my most noteworthy traits is that I verbalize apologies to others on a frequent basis. While that observation about me is generally accompanied by the comment to me by others that "you (John Kevin McMillan) apologize to others too much," my verbalization of apologies to other persons does, at least, underscore the point that I am a conscientious and honorable gentleman.
By contrast, I maintain that many of the adult male persons who either never or almost never apologize to others for having wonged them, allegedly exhibit a predatory or rapacious or excessively domineering and cruel as well as abusive style toward other human beings.
---I myself have been told by others on numerous occasions that they are impressed by my empathy and kindness and thoughtfulness toward a variety of persons from a wide variety of backgrounds.
One very influential "Dallas Morning News" reporter, Victoria Loe, in December of 1992 or January 1993 even wrote and mailed to me a signed Holiday Season reply note in which she kindly praised me for being one of the "most thoughtful" persons whom Victoria Loe had ever known. I received that much-appreciated Season's Greeting message from Victoria Loe at my mailing address during that time period in Pampa, Texas---a city where I was employed as an education-beat reporter for the "Pampa Daily News" general-circulation daily newspaper.
In 1985, during a social outing I had inside an Irish-style pub in the Boston area of Massachusetts with a kindly female freelance editor for "Atlanatic Monthly" magazine, that very nice lady, Liz, volunteered to me in person that "I (Liz) have never met any man before who is as sensitive toward women as you yourself are."
---I myself take pride in being friendly and NOT abrasive toward others.
In my entire life, I have almost never been told by any other human being that he or she regarded me as being "bitchy" or a "bitch," though one thoughtful student newspaper reporter at "The Minnesota Daily", Doug McElroy, did volunteer to me in person in 1983 or 1984 during a workday for me inside that student newspaper office on the University of Minnesota campus in Minneapolis that my oped-column writing for that student newspaper came across as "bitchy," Doug said. Doug McElroy urged me to myself pursue a career in teaching, since he said that I'm better as a teacher than as a writer, he candidly emphasized to me.
---I myself cannot currently recall any occasion in my entire life when I myself ever once shouted at another human being with rage or fury in my own voice.
That aspect of my own conduct record poses a sharp contrast to the 1983 or 1984 confession I received from a self-identified male adult person who was employed at the time in the main office of the University of Minnesota Math Department in Minneapolis. That male adult person, who owned a key to that math department's main office that he himself used one weekend in my presence to himself enter that building and its main office, stated to me one day in 1983 or 1984 that he had been enraged in the middle of a busy workday for him one day by a job-related question that had been posed to him by a college freshman who had entered the main office of that academic department building. Instead of replying in a professionally polite and helpful manner to the question from that college freshman, the former individual shouted "F--k you!" at the college freshman inside that Math Department's main office, according to what the former indivdiual himself confessed to me a matter of days or weeks after that shocking incident.
Another male adult resident of Minneapolis was observed by me in 1983 or 1984 shouting loudly with rage in this voice at a motorist ----a motorist whom he himself informally accused of failing to fully yield to himself as he walked across the street near the entrance to the main campus of the University of Minnesota in Minneapolis.
----I myself have almost never hung up my end of the phone line in the middle of a personal phone call that another human being had made to me, or that I had made to another human being.
The one exception I can currently recall was the occasion in 1993 or 1994 when I did politely inform a stranger from the Houston area of Texas who had made a long-distance personal phone call to my private residence in Pampa, Texas, that I myself was NOT receptive to having any conversation with him relating to his lengthy delineation of his own "favorite sexual fantasies," and his emphatic unsolicited request that I describe my own "favorite sexual fantasies" to him, and that I would have to hang up my end of the phone line for that cited reason, I politely explained.
---I myself have not consumed any drinking alcohol or any beer on any occasion since the late summer of 1990.
---I myself am NOT a recovering alcoholic. Nor am I a current alcoholic. Nor do I have an alcoholic personality.
---I have found for many years of my own life that I am much more likely to trust, and to enjoy the company of, other human beings who, like me in that regard, are NOT alcoholics.
---I myself strongly support the legal and Constitutional right of a non-alcoholic American citizen to himself associate with other non-alcoholic American citizens, provided that those acquaintanceships or friendships are mutual-consent in nature.
---I myself take pride in my ability to experience and express empathy and sympathy and kindness and generosity toward persons of a wide variety of backgrounds.
----I myself have greater self-critical aptitude than the vast majority of all adult men, regardless of their own cited "sexual" identity or "gender" identity. It is my own emphatic view that a person cannot be fully honest and conscientious and law-abiding unless he has a healthy capacity for self-critical aptitude.
----I myself am psychologically healthy and have not myself taken or ingested any psychiatric medication on any occasion or at any time in the the last 22 years, for instance.
----My current primary care physician in Austin, Texas, consistently expresses confidence in my own mental health, and a recent prior primary care physician of mine, Dr. Manish Naik, himself a very distinguished alumnus of the University of California at Los Angeles Medical School, stated to me during a patient consultation appointment I had with with him several years ago inside his medical clinic location at that time n northwest Austin, that Dr. Naik himself believes that I myself am NOT "schizophrenic," he very helpfully commented to me with emphasis during a time period in which I did politely emphasize to Dr. Naik that I myself as a law-abiding and illicit-drug-free and teetotaling tobacco-free adult gentleman feel much more comfortable overall as a human being with a higher percentage of all of the adult heterosexual men and all of the adult heterosexual women than of other respective adult subpopulations I also cited to Dr. Naik.
---I myself have never on any occasion been under any type of court-ordered mental-health commitment or any court-ordered mental health-related restriction of any type on more than one total occasion in my entire life, and I have not been under any type of court-ordered mental health commitment or court-ordered mental-health-related restriction of any type on any occasion in the last 20-year period, in particular.
---I myself have never on any occasion this 21st Century ever once spent any money of my own on gambling or entering a state lottery of any type in the hope of myself then winning a "financial prize" from that gambling or lottery.
----The total amount of money in my entire life that I myself have spent on legal gambling or on submitting an entry of my own into a state lottery in Massachusetts or in Texas, or in any other state or nation, for that matter, was $10 or less.
---I myself strongly support the legal and Constitutional right of a nonsmoker (I myself being a non-smoker) to associate freely and extensively, in cases of mutual consent involvements, with other nonsmokers during the former individual's leisuretime.
---I myself have NEVER stated to anyone at any time in my entire life that I regard myself as being a "hedonist" or a "libertarian" or a "libertine" or a "narcissist" or a "pleasure-seeker."
---I myself have almost never, if ever, directly stated to any other human being that a cited male person "appears to be very attracted to me" or "appears to have a crush on me" or "seeks to have sex with me", "or seeks to get into my pants," or words to that effect.
I strongly support the view that many of the leading personal attractions from others that anyone experiences in life are, in fact, platonic or non-sexual in nature. Many of the smiles directed at oneself by other human beings are friendly or sublime smiles without there being any sexual intent or romantic intent behind those smiles.
----I myself have almost never been told by another human being that he or she regarded me as being "too materialistic" or "crassly materialistic" or "materialistic" or "superficial" or "emotionally shallow."
An exception to that were the several respective self-identified Christians, who each stated or indicated to me in the period ever since the 1970s that my own beliefs on religion and my own values and lifestyle allegedly identified me as myself being "mired in the materialism of this world," or words to that effect.
---I myself have NEVER declared to anyone (as the the world-famous author Truman Capote once did) that death is the most intriguing thing that ever happens to a human being. I myself emphasize instead my strong support for a wide variety of preventive medicine strategies and healthful living strategies that can help any person to enjoy the best possible medical health and creatively-vital lifespan.
---I myself have never at any time responded to a two-vehicle accident on the roadway that I had just witnessed by myself gleefully shouting (as one Minneapolis male adult person did in 1982 in my presence) to a victim of that motor-vehicle collision: "Good show! That was very entertaining!", or words to that effect.
---I myself have almost never or never been told by any other human being that he regards my own values or lifestyle as being decadent or immoral.
---I myself have never stated to any other human being that his own rejection of myself would result in his being subjected to many years of suffering and misery and punishment by others as a result of that decision he had made to lawfully exclude me from his own life.
----I have almost never been criticized by any other person at any time in my entire adult life in any context in which he or she stated to me that he or she regarded me as being "too possessive" or "possessive" or "too proprietary" or "too dominant" or "domineering" toward that individual, or toward some other cited individual or group of individuals.
----I myself have never at any time stated to anyone whom I lent money of my own to that I had any expectations about how he himself lived his own life or about whom he associated with, or that my lendig him money was contingent on his having any type of current or future involvement with myself of any type, with the sole exception to that being that I would appreciate his paying me back when he waw able to.
---I myself have never refused to fully honor another person's verbalized rejection of myself over a multi-decade period or multi-year period, with one total exception from the mid-1980s that I resolved fully and finally in 1988 by myself never again contacting that person at any time.
In that regard, I was myself advised in person by the apparently well-intended male head clergyman of a First Unitarian Church (also known as the "Church of the Presidents") in Quincy, Mass., in 1986 or 1987 that I should myself (John Kevin McMillan, then a Quincy resident) continue to politely pursue a "friendly meeting" and "friendly dialogue" with a cited male adult person in the South Shore area of Massachusetts who reportedly had conveyed an apparent rejection of myself during that time period. I was also led to believe by others (and it's possible that I was misled in that way) that the cited South Shore-area resident was possibly or may have been allegedly impinging on my own privacy rights or may have allegedly been subjecting me to manipulations of my own living conditions and living circumstances during the time period after he had conveyed an apparent or possible rejection of myself.
In any case, I myself DID NOT call or write to the cited individual on any occasion after 1988. In 1988, that individual responded to a polite follow-up long-distance phone call inquiry from me that I made from an outdoor pay telephone situated outside of a Whataburger chain restaurant along Barton Springs Boulevard in Austin, Texas, by himself shouting at me from his end of the phone line in the South Shore area, situated south of Boston, in Massachusetts: "F--k (obscenity) off!", and by himself then himself slamming down his end of the phone line.
In more recent decades, I have been very prompt about myself fully honoring any and all verbalized permanent rejections of myself that any other human being directly communicates to me at any time.
----My own freedom-loving style in which I do not compel any other human being to associate with me in my personal life, regardless of whether that indivdiual owes me any money, is undersored by the simple fact that every year during the Holiday Season, I receive an average of either one or two Holiday Season greeting cards that had been mailed to me by another person.
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----I myself have never at any time grabbed any human being by the collar (as one Minneapolis male adult person did to me in 1981) and then marched that "hostage" or "captive" against his wishes around an entire alcoholic bar or nightclub while conspicuously holding that very disgusted human being by the collar the entire time.
---I myself have never attempted to punish or torture or harm or abuse or anger or alienate or offend or inflict suffering or pain or distress on another human being by subjecting him against his wishes to frequent and year-round anonymous communications violating his privacy rights that express defiance of, nd contempt toward, his asserted legal and Constitutional right to himself PERMANENTLY AND IRREVOCABLY EXCLUDE from his own life each of the cited individual persons that he has, in fact, permanently rejected from his own life.
----I myself have never declared at a social party (as one Minneapolis male adult person did in a loud comment he made in my presence in 1982) that I found it very amusing to note that the metro area where I reside would be among the first urban areas to be annihilated in the event of a nuclear attack against the United States by a foreign coutnry. It is true, though, that I did sometimes quote that particular comment to me by a "Minneapolitan," as he may have called himself at the time, as an example of what I myself gleefully denounced as deplorable depravity and decadence in American society during the 1980s.
---I myself have never once stated or indicated to anyone that I have no interest in the quality of life and level of happiness experienced by all future generations of Americans, or by all future generations of persons residing in other countries as well.
---I myself definitely do NOT subscribe to the view that a frivolous or "gay" social party featuring copious sips of alcohol and the illicit drug marijuana and rampant nudism and sexual promiscuity is an appropriate metaphor for what life should primarily be about. My response to that type of metaphorical thinking is to myself declare: "The party is over!"
---I myself never once hosted a job-related party or job-related event at which consumption of the flagrantly illicit drug marijuana occurred anywhere on the premises of the party site during the party.
This aspect of my own conduct record poses a very sharp contrast to conduct exhibited one day in late 1989 by a full-time employee of "The Big Spring Herald" general-circulation daily newspaper in Big Spring, Texas.
A matter of hours after I myself attended a successful job interview for myself in late 1989 for a reporting position inside the "Big Spring Herald" newsroom in Big Spring, Texas, the cited "Big Spring Herald" employee that same day hsted an evening staff party inside that "Big Spring Herald" employee's home in Big Spring, Texas. The flagrantly illicit drug marijuana was consumed in my own presence, and in the presence of several editors of "The Big Spring Herald," by several of the "Big Spring Herald" permanent employees during that party. I myself did not consume any of the marijuana that was "served" at that "Big Spring Herald"-related "party." I later learned that the "Big Spring Herald" during that time period was reportedly owned by a for-profit corporation headquartered in the foreign nation of Canada.
---I myself am NEITHER a former drug addict NOR a current drug addict.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once owned any marijuana peraphernalia, or any parphernalia that could be used to consume any other type of illicit drug, for that matter.
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever at any time sold to another person, or provided to someone in exchange for a payment of money to myself, any quantity of marijuana or any other illicit drug on any occasion. I have NEVER been a drug dealer.
---I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever knowingly identified myself as being a personal friend of anyone whom I knew at the time to be an illicit-drug dealer.
---I myself have never at any time ever stated to any other human being that I advise that individual against reporting evidence of illicit drug trafficking or illicit-drug-related activities to a law-enforcement agency. However, I may have mentioned on occasion to another person that possibly there may be a risk of violent reprisal from the criminal underworld against courageous law-abiding individuals who diligently report factual evidence of illict-drug-activities to a law-enforcement agency.
---I myself have NEVER stated to anyone in my entire life that I myself support legalization of marijuana in any context of any type.
---I myself have never on any occasion been affiliated in any way with, or been a dues-paying member of honorary member of, the political action group called "National Organization for Reform of Marijuana Laws," a group also known as "NORML." I regard the political agenda of that group as being repressive, injurious, and subversive.
---I myself have never been a dues-paying member of any group that advocated legalization or marijuana at any time during the period in which I was an official member of that group.
---I myself strongly support the legal right and human right of any and all members of the anti-marijuana community to associate freely and extensively with numerous OTHER law-abiding members of the anti-marijuana community, with that noble community consisting of honorable persons who permanently abstain from any consumption or any sale or purchase of marijuana, and who also fully support enforcement of laws that prohibit the sale, purchase, possession, or consumption of marijuana.
---I myself HAVE been told by numerous persons that they regard me as being a "NARC," a "snitch," or an "FBI agent," with those individuals generally indicating to me that they regard me as being excessively devoted to vigilance and to myself assisting law-enforcement agencies or work supervisors in enforcement of the law or enforcement of rules at the workplace, respectively.
---I myself have never consumed marijuana or any other illicit drug, for that matter, on any occasion or at any time since late 1984.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once consumed or ingested any quantity of methamphetamine. Nor will I ever at any time in my entire life ever on any occasion ever at any time consume or ingest methamphetamine.
----I myelf have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once consumed or ingested any quantity of the illicit drug cocaine or the illicitg drug crack cocaine. Nor would I ever at any time in my entire life ever on any occasion ever at any time consume or ingest cocaine or crack cocaine.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once consumed or ingested any quantity of the illicit drug heroin. Nor would I ever at any time in my entire life ever on any occasion consume or ingest any quantity of heroin.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once consumed or ingested any quantity of the illicit drug LSD. Nor would I ever at any time in my entire life ever on any occasion consume or ingest LSD.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever at any time consumed any illicit drug OTHER than marijuana.
----In my entire life, I myself did not consume any marijuana on more than 10 total occasions, with the vast majority of those occasions having occurred during the spring semester of 1977 when I resided duing my sophomore year in college with a marijuana-smoking male roommate in a college dormitory at Washington University in St. Louis, a private university situated in Missouri.
---I myself never purchased any quantity of marijuana on more than one total occasion in my entire life.
That one total occasion occurred only after a very influential "Daily Texan" student newspaper photographer coworker of mine in the summer of 1978 urged me to purchase one tiny quantity of marijuana from his younger brother, a cited freshman at the University of Texas at Austin. I myself never at any time ever once opened that tiny sealed cellophane bag reportedly containing marijuana, and I did in fact poiltely return that unopened item to the cited male "Daily Texan" photographer coworker of mine during a brief visit he made to my campus-area apartment unit in the late summer of 1978 or fall of 1978. I did not ask for
or accept any financial payment from the cited "Daily Tecan" colleague of mine when I simply handed back to him what his younger brother had sold me earlier that same year.
---I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever once offered any other human being any "brownie" that had, in fact, been secretly or surreptitiously laced with the hideous illicit drug marijuana.
----I myself have never on any occasion emphatically assured a prospective roommate on the telephone that I myself NEVER consume any quantity of marijuana or any quantity of any other illicit drug, only to later myself confess to that same individual (as one male adult resident of Austin, Texas, did to me in the late 1990s inside an apartment unit that he rented along Highway 620 in far west Austin) that "I myself (that particular adult male Austin resident) do have a monthly tradition of eating one marijuana brownie with a male companion of mine shortly before we go out together to attend a concert of the Austin Symphony Orchestra; but I (that particular male adult Austin resident) don't consider that to be illicit drug consumption, since that is only a marijuana brownie and I only do that once per month" (approximate quote of that heavyset Austin man's in-person confession to me that played a role in my politely-verbalized rejection of himself as a prospective roommate).
---I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever once purchased any "marijuana brownie" from any other human being.
----I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever once baked or contributed toward the baking of any new batch of "marijuana brownies" at any time. I am, in fact, appalled by marijuana brownies, which give a bad name to a traditionally wholesome all-American snack item or dessert item.
---I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever once subjected any other human being against his wishes to involuntary ingestion of marijuana or involuntary ingestion of any other illicit drug, for that matter.
My own conduct record in that category contrasts sharply with conduct in Minneapolis, Minnesota, by a self-identified of-duty male adult U.S. Postal Service employee who in 1983 or 1982 at the Franklin Heights apartment complex situated at the intersection of Hennepin Avenue and Franklin in south Minneaoplis, volunteered to me that he wanted to "thank" me as a kindly neighbor of his for having helped him to move his belongings from one apartment unit to another that day.
The self-identified U.S. Postal Service deliveryman then proceeded to offer me what appeared to be a wholesome brownie that he said he wanted to treat me to as my reward for having helped him move his belongings that day.
A matter of seconds later, after I had either eaten or begun to eat the cited brownie, I was disgusted to sense that some very unwanted foreign substance had infiltrated my brain. After I confronted the off-duty U.S. Postal Service deliveryman with my own impression that the "wholesome brownie treat" in question had, in fact, been laced with marijuana, he confirmed my suspicion on that as valid.
Even though I did epxress anger in person toward that particular off-duty employee of the U.S. Postal Service in Minneapolis, I was, at least, dependably civil and clean-talking in my expression of disgust and indignation toward that individual for having subjected without my knowledge or consent to involuntary consumption of the illicit drug marijuana.
---I myself have never participated in any sex act of any type inside any commercial sex parlor or inside any "gay bathhouse" anywhere in the entire world on any occasion in my entire life.
---I myself have never n any occasion in my entire life ever once brought anyone home with me from a "gay bathhouse" or commercial sex parlor of any type and then myself had sex with that individual inside my own private residnece or apartment.
This aspect of my own conduct poses a very sharp contrast to the unsolicited oral statement made to me in 2001 by a male Hispanic prospective roommate for me who had been tentatively matched with me by "Windsor Roommate Service" situated in west Austin. During a visit I made to that Hispanic man's apartment unit near or along Far West Boulevard in Austin, he volunteered to me with no context to his comment that "If you room with me, you will get to watch me (the Hispanic man) having frequent anal sex in the living room of this apartment nnit with a variety of male strangers whom I have brought home with me after picking them up from a gay bathhouse or gay bar . My bedroom is not equipped for doing that, since my bed is not big enough for that type of action, so that's why I'll be doing it in the living room on a frequent basis if you room with me. That will be a nice added feature you will get from rooming with me here, and I won't charge you any money for the opportunity you will get to watch me having sex with a variety of male sex partners in the living room of this apartment unit."
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once hosted an ilicit-drug "party" at which any quantity of marijuana or any other illicit drug, such as crack cocaine, was in fact served to any of the guests at that party.
---I myself in 1994 wrote and mailed by U.S. Postal Service from my private residence in west Texas to State of Texas officials in Austin a signed legal letter on my behalf in which I politely recommended the govermment-ordered or court-ordered closing of any and all of the so-called "gay bathhouses" of Texas where anonymous sex occurs between strangers. In that legal letter, I emphasized that commiercial sex parlors of tha type comprise a fire hazard, and that they are spawning grounds for the spread of sexually transmitted diseases, including the often-fatal HIV virus. I also maintained in my 1994 letter to State of Texas officials that the payment of money in exchange for having sex with others inside a "gay bathhouse" comprises a form of defacto sexual prostitution, in my opinion.
---I myself am dismayed by the prevalence of anonymous sex among single persons in the United States of today, and I urge single persons to get to know a prospective sex partner or romantic partner, including with several platonic-meeting conversations in wihch both conversation partners are sober, before they might ever agree to have sex with that person.
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once been a paying customer or customer inside any commercial sex parlor or any "gay bathhouse" anywhere in Texas or anywhere in any bordering state, anywhere in Florida, anywhere in Massachusetts, anywhere in New York, anywhere in Missouri, or anywhere in California, for instance.
---I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever once advised any other human being to visit a gay bathhouse or commercial sex parlor as a paying customer, or to visit a house of prostitution or whorehouse as a paying customer.
---I myself have never once in my entire adult life ever at any time physically whipped or physically beaten any other human being on any occasion.
---I myself have never at any time in my adult life ever once permitted any other human being to physically beat or physically whip myself on any occasion during my waking or conscious hours.
My own conduct record in that way poses a very sharp contrast to an autobiograhical statement
I received from a male adult resident of Minneapolis, Minnesota, in 1982 or 1983. That male adult Minneapolis man confided to me one day that "I (that Minneapolis man) was recently beaten and whipped over a mulit-month period by my Hispanic male adult lover inside our rental apartment unit in Minneapolis" (approximate quote).
---I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever on any occasion advised another human being (as Mr. Tory Holmes, then the only nighttime librarian for the "Patriot Ledger" daily newspaper in Quincy, Mass., advised me on the telephone from his private residence in Boston in 1985) that it should not be any concern of mine, and it should not pose any problem for me of any type, for myself in the near future during that period myself room with a male adult Boston-area resident who had confessed to me that the latter person reportedly likes to be physically beaten and physically whipped inside his own bedroom by a variety of male strangers whom that Boston man would habitually and repeatedly bring into the cited two-bedroom apartment unit during nighttime hours or early-morning hours in Boston, Massachusetts.
---I myself have never at any time permitted anyone to subject me to fist fornication on any occasion in my entire life. Nor have I myself ever at any time ever once inserted my own fist into the anal cavity or rectum of any other human being on any occasion in my entire life.
---I myself have NEVER once stated to any other human being (as one self-identified gay rights activist in Austin, Texas, confessed to me on the telephone one day in 1999) that I regard
fist-fornication, or "fist-f-cking" (a profane term used by many self-identified gay persons) as somehow being "fun" or "enjoyable", and that I "recommend" that sex practice to others as well.
---I myself have never at any time picked up any other customer, or been picked up by any other customer, inside a self-identified "S and M" (sadomasochism-theme) nightclub or "S and M" (sadomasochism-theme) bar on any occasion in my entire life.
----I myself have never at any time ever once been told by any other person that he or she regarded myself as being allegedly guilty of intergenerational exploitation of younger persons in any cited context.
---I myself have never once been told by any other person that he or she suspected or alleged that I myself had attempted to bribe an attractive younger person by myself using money or material goods that I allegedly gave or offered to that younger person.
---I myself have never once been acccused by any other human being of having myself allegedly "gotten someone drunk" in order to then myself allegedly pressure that inebriated individual into having sex with myself.
---I myself have never ocne been accused by any other human being of having myself allegedly "gotten someone high" on marijuana or some other illicit drug, in order to then myself allegedly force that "high" individual into having sex with myself during a period in which that individual was under the influence of that illicit drug.
---I myself in my prior career as a full-time newspaper reporter (or in any other career of mine that I have pursued, for that matter) have never on any occasion ever at any time invited or asked any individual whom I relied on for "news scoops" to himself consume any marijuana with me.
This aspect of my own conduct poses a sharp contrast to the reported conduct of a male work supervisor of mine in 1979 at the "Miami Herald"-owned "Broward Times" general-circulation newspaper based in Tamarac, Florida. According to what I was told by an apparently reliable reporter at "The Broward Times", the individual who had hired me, Mr. Donald Crull, then editor-in-chief of "The Broward Times", had been promoted to that position of leadership partly because in his prior days as a reporter for "The Broward Times," Mr. Crull had reportedly obtained very good quotes and "scoops" from individuals serving as "top sources" for him in a context in which Mr. Crull on several or more occasions reportedly smoked marijuana with those individuals away from the "Broward Times" office building, according to the "Broward Times" reporter's "insider's account" about Mr. Crull's "success story" as of that time within the "Miami Herald" newspaper company affiliated with Knight-Ridder Newspapers.
---I myself have never once been told by any other human being that he or she regarded me as being a sadistic or infamously exploitative and sadistic "Sugar Daddy" figure who allegedly took advantage of the financial vulnerability of attractive younger persons in some cited context.
---I myself have never on any occasion since the late 1980s ever once agreed to myself have any carnal relations with or any sexual contact with any person who was more than one year older than myself in age; and I myself am NOT receptive to any domineering and exploitative and sadistic "Sugar Daddy" figure having any involvement in my own personal life. Nor, for that matter, would I myself ever at any time in the 21st Century of my own life ever at any time be receptive to myself ever having any type of sexual contact between myself and anyone more than one year older in age than myself.
----I myself have never been told or informed by anyone on any occasion that he or she regarded me as being a domineering or exploitative or sadistic or law-breaking "Sugar Daddy" figure toward any adult younger male person or toward any male youth, for that matter.
In that regard, one male adult roommate of mine from Italy who was himself presumably at least 15 years younger in age than myself, in a 2000 signed letter of recommendation he wrote for me did praise me in writing for not myself taking advantage of my own seniority in my own conduct toward himself as his roommate.
---I myself have never been criticized by any person in my entire life who himself or herself accused me of having myself been citedly guilty of intergenerational exploitation of, or of allegedly taking advantage of the vulnerability of, a person 10 or more years younger in age than myself.
----In my entire adult life, I have never on any occasion initiated or had any physical contact (other than a possible handshake) between myself and any minor, with the only exception to that having been a few fully-clothed hugs that did not involve any alleged impropriety on my part.
In 1980, when I lived in New Ulm, Minnesota, and worked full-time as a newspaper reporter there, one 8-year-old male youth whom I got together with during my leisuretime on a frequent basis as part of my official membership there in the "Big Brother" program, did himself on his own initiative enthusiastically ask me to hug him during our weekend get-togethers.
I replied to his request by poiltely stating that I would only be willing to participate in a hug with the male youth in question, an 8-year-old boy named Chris, in a context when I was dropping him off at the front doorstep of his mother's home in New Ulm and his mother was ALSO present on the front door step at the time in order to herself authorize that hug that the male youth had requested of myself, I also indicated to Chris.
I might also note that at least two respective three-year-old youths on their own initiative have each grabbed me around my lower leg during working hours for me as a waiter in restaurant workplaces of mine in Austin this 21st Century.
Thsoe three-year-old youths included a girl who habitually approached me whenever she saw me on duty inside IHOP Duval restaurant. That three-year-old girl would then grab me around one of my lower legs and proceed to hug that lower leg. I was very careful myself to never physically touch that girl in any way at any time. A work supervisor of mine at IHOP Duval chain restaurant advised me during one of my workshifts there in the early 21st Century that I was expected to always myself simply stand still while the three-year-old girl grabbed me and embraced me around my leg, regardless of how many seconds transpired during each such unsolicited "leg hug" for me, my work supervisor indicated during workshifts of mine as a waiter. It was up to the girl's mother to ask the 3-year-old girl to stop hugging my lower leg, my IHOP work supervisor advised me repeatedly during workshifts for me as a waiter inside that franchise restaurant of the IHOP restaurant chain earlier this 21st Century.
I did repeatedly comment during two or more of those incidents to a work supervisor of mine at IHOP Duval restaurant that I found it awkward to myself simply stand near a dining table while on duty as a waiter and myself permit the 3-year-old girl to grab and embrace my lower leg.
I emphasized to a work supervisor of mine at IHOP Duval restaurant my own concern that OTHER guests dining inside that restaurant might witness that incident and suspect me of being somehow allegedly guilty of suspected impropriety toward the minor in question during my off-duty hours away from that workplace. In fact, I myself did not have any type of "personal" relationship with, or any type of personal involvement with, that very young female customer outside of my IHOP Duval chain restaurant workplace----a restaurant situated near the intersection of Research Boulevard and Duval in northwest Austin in the U.S. state of Texas. In fact, I never saw that 3-year-old girl on any occasion in my entire life, aside from during working hours for me as a waiter inside the IHOP Duval chain restaurant workplace in Austin.
----In my entire adult life, I have never been directly informed on any occasion or at any time by any person that he or she suspected me or accused me of myself having allegedly had improper or illegal or uncivil physical contact of any type with any minor.
The only possible exception to that was the shocking "anonymous news tip" phone call "report" about me that my news editor at the "Big Spring (TX) Herald" volunteered to me one workshift for me in 1990 that he had received in his office of that daily newspaper's office building.
That work supervisor of mine, Mr. Steve Ray, stated to me at that time with apparent anger toward me in his voice and demeanor that he had just received an anonymous phone call in which the caller stated to Steve Ray that the caller had observed me allegedly participating in alleged flagrantly illegal pederastic sex with a cited male Hispanic member of the varsity boys' tennis team at Stanton High School during a multi-minute time period late one afternoon in 1990 in which I was myself representing "The Big Spring Herald" while I sat across from the male youth at a booth inside a Dairy Queen chain restaurant in Stanton, Texas.
In response to Mr. Ray's angry statement to me one evening in 1990 in the newsroom of "The Big Spring Herald" general-circulation newspaper in Big Spring, Texas, I did politely point out to Mr. Ray that the anonymous phone call "report" he had reportedly received was completely incorrect. I had merely interviewed the cited male Hispanic youth inside the cited Dairy Queen restaurant about his success as a member of the varsity tennis team at Stanton High School in Stanton, Texas. The only physical contact I myself might have had with the male Hispanic youth in question would have been a polite handshake, if that much,which would have occurred strictly in the context of my ionterviewing him for "The Big Spring Herald" daily newspaper.
---I myself am appalled by and very opposed to the violent and very injurious sex crime of pederasty, a flagrant and outrageous felony crime that has been trivialized by those who now call it "pedophilia", "pedophilia" being a frequently used term these days that I regard as being perversely euphemistic.
---I myself have never at any time been a dues-paying or official member of, or someone affiliated in any way with, the subversive and very injuriously law-breaking group which calls itself the "North American Man-Boy Love Association."
That group advocating legalization of the outrageous and flagrant sex crime of pederasty involving sadistic and injurious exploitation of male youths, serves as a very deplorable spawning ground for heinous sex crimes involving the rape and subjugation of male youths.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once agreed to meet in person with any underage youth who stated to me or indicated to me (such as through a letter that one male youth wrote and mailed to me in 1988 when I lived alone in a duplex apartment unit I rented in El Campo, Texas) that he wanted to explore his sexuality with me.
----In my entire adult lfie, I have almost never on any occasion talked about sex or sexual identity matters with any underage youth.
The only exception I can recall related to a high school student male coworker of mine at IHOP Duval chain restaurant, where I worked in the first decade of the 21st Century. That male youth, who repeatedly stated to coworkers of his in 2003 within earshot of me that I myself allegedly "wanted to have sex" with him, in his opinion, or words to that effect, prompted me to volunteer to him an oral statement while on duty as a waiter in that restaurant, that I myself am definitely NOT a pederast, I poiltely emphasized one day during an employee meal break for me at that workplace.
I also emphasized to that same male youth at some point during a workshift of mine at IHOP Duval that I myself would ONLY be willing to date someone age 19 or older, and someone who is no more than one year older than myself in age, I also politely emphasized to that male youth during working hours for each of us at IHOP Duval chain restaurant in Austin, Texas.
At no time during my entire tenure at IHOP Duval did I ever on any occasion ever once meet with that male youth away from my workplace at any time during his own high school years. The only meeting I ever had with him during my leisuretime occurred after he graduated from high school and he made n unexpected phone call to me in which he volunteered that he would like to treat me to a birthday meal at a nearby Truluck's chain restaurant on the week of my birthday (April 27).
That younger gentleman emphasized that he would be treating me to a birthday meal in the context of his encouraging me on his own volition to myself apply for a job with good benefits in northwest Austin at a reputable employer that he knew about. I did meet with him for that birthday invitation meal, and I felt that I was polite to him throughout that meal that he kindly treated me to on one total occasion. At no time during that entire meal did I ever at any time discuss the subjects of sex or sexual identity or romantic life, or any related topic. That dinnertime meeting I had with him inside a Truluck's restaurant during my leisuretime was the only leisuretime meeting I ever had with him of more than two minutes' duration at any time in my entire life. I do recall having had a very brief mutual-consent one-minute conversation with him when I happened to run into him inside an H.E.B. supermarket in northwest Austin in 2010 or 2011, I believe it was. My own relationship with him has always been platonic in nature, with no physical contact of any type between either of us, the only noteworthy exception to that having been a handshake on at least one occasion.
At no time in my entire life did I ever on any occasion ever once state to the cited male person that I myself am or was citedly "gay" or "homosexual" or "bisexual" or "transsexual" in sexual identity or gender identity per se.
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever at any time agreed to purchase, or actually purchased, any pack of cigarettes or any other tobacco product, for that matter, for distribution to any male youth or any female youth. Any such outrageous conduct is, of course, flagrantly illegal and a major crime in the state of Texas.
--I myself never hurl a vase or any other object at another person in the middle of an argument or verbalized disagreement with that person.
---I myself have never on any occasion inserted any inanimate foreign object into the anal cavity or rectum or mouth of any other human being, any such sadistic conduct posing a severe or major threat to the medical health and personal safety of that individual.
---I myself never verbalize any death threat to any other human being. I maintain that any and all executions of human beings should be exclusively administered by the criminal justice system of the government after that individual is officially convicted of the heinous and barbarous crime of homicide in a court of law.
---In my entire life, I myself have never once commented to anyone that a cited individual within view of me who was himself working as an employee inside a business establishment where I was a customer at that time, was also an individual whom I expected to die or "drop dead" in the near future or foreseeable future.
My own conduct reocrd in that way poses a very sharp contrast to conduct by a male adult person that I observed shortly after midnight one morning in 2002 or 2003, at a time when I myself was a waiter on duty inside IHOP Ohlen restaurant near Ohlen Road and Highway 183 in the north side of Austin, Texas.
At the time, I was diligently and politely providing waitering services to two adult men who were dining together inside that IHOP franchise restaurant.
One of the two men at that dining table, himself an observably effeminate heavyset Hispanic person wearing lots of jewelry on his arms and neck, suddenly stated with emphasis to his male dining companion as I myself walked past their table: "One of these days, he'll be dead!" (exact quote).
I was the only male person within 50 feet of the two-person party at that dining table.
---I myself have never participated in any vigilante group that sought to pressure or hound a cited pariah into himself moving away from the metro area or city or town where I myself resided at that time.
---I myself fully support the legal and human right of any human being (with the notable exception of a prison inmate confined on death row and awaiting court-ordered execution inside a prison facility after having been convicted in a court of law of the heinous and barbarous crime of first-degree homicide) to himself or herself enjoy a full and fully vital and fully creative and medically healthy and prosperous and happy life and lifespan.
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire adult life ever once worn a dress or skirt at any time.
---I myself never wear any jewelry on my own body.
---I myself have never worn any ear-ring or nostril-ring or penis ring (also known as a co-k (obscenity) ring or body piercing on my own body on any occasion in my entire life.
---I myself have never once on any occasion ever once "dressed in drag" and appeared in a public place as a transvestite on any occasion in my entire life.
---I myself have never on any occasion boasted or declared or joked to another human being that "I'm (John Kevin McMillan) a BITCH!", or words to that effect.
---I myself respectfully question the need for nearly all of the sex-change operations occurring in the United States, and I regard it as sadistic and injurious to mutilate and destoy the genitals of a male person, a practice that those who call themselves "transsexual" often or generally request for themselves.
----I myself never at any time in my entire life ever once advised any other male person at any time to "dress in drag," to "dress up as a transvestite," to "dress up as a female," or to "undergo a sex change operation," or words to that effect.
----I myself respectfully question whether the federal government in the United States or the State Government of Texas or Travis County Government in Austin, Texas, or the City Government of Austin in Austin, Texas, should spend any taxpayers' money toward subsidizing or paying for or defraying the cost of any type of "sex change operation" for any person.
---I myself have never once been physically assaulted or punched in the eye by any male person who stated or indicated at the time that I had sexually harassed that individual or any other male person, for that matter.
The only occasion in which any other human being ever punched me in the eye at any time during my adult years was in 1986 or 1987 in Braintree, Mass., and the male adult person who punched me in the eye that night after I had just concluded an evening workshift of mine as a hotel desk clerk at a Suisse Chalet chain hotel in Braintree, Mass., emphasized to me seconds before he assaulted me on the grounds of a subway station that he personally accused me of having allegedly sexually harassed his female heterosexual girlfriend or his female heterosexual sister, and I forget which of the two he cited to me just before punching me in the eye.
---I myself am NOT a sex addict. I myself am NOT a sexaholic.
--The total number of occasions in my entire life when I either picked up a complete stranger inside a bar or nightclub, or I allowed a complete stranger to pick me up inside a bar or nightclub, and I then had then sex with that individual at any time within 24 hours of that incident, was six total occasions, all of which occurred in the 1970s or 1980s.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once referred to any cited male person primarily in terms of the estimated length of his own phallus or penis, or in terms of the perceived shape his own phallus or penis.
----I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever once kissed the cheek or lips of, or engaged in necking with, any coworker of mine or any work supervisor of mine insdie any place of employment for me or inside any workplace of mine.
That aspect of my own conduct at a workplace of mine poses a sharp contrast to a self-identified "gay" male work supervisor of mine in 1979 during a one-day or two-day period in which I myself held a bussing job inside the Trade Winds Hotel that was located near the beach in Fort Lauderdale, Florida.
As a paid busboy in that hotel's restaurant, which served many heterosexual persons among that restaurant's clientele, I was very disgusted to be performing my job while watching my male "boss" kissing and necking with a male person as the two of them sat at a nearby dining table in that restaurant. I very abruptly quit that job, since I was thoroughly alienated by that offensively unprofessional and publicly lewd conduct on the part of my own work supervisor.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever in the middle of my workshift participated in a one-to-one meeting of any duration with any sex partner of mine inside the workplace where I was on duty at that time.
That aspect of my own conduct record at my workplaces or places of employment poses a very sharp contrast to conduct in 1979 that was exhibited by Donald Crull, my head work supervisor at the "Miami Herald"-owned "Broward Times" general-circulation newspaper in Tamarac, Florida, situated in western Broward County. I was myself a member of the reporting staff of "The Broward Times," and I had been hired by Mr. Crull---who repeatedly emphasized to me at the time, including in long-distance phone conversations I had had with him from my private apartment unit in Austin, Texas, near theUT-Austin campus, that he agreed to hire me because "I (Mr. Crull) am under lots of pressure from editors at 'The Miami Herald' to hire you (John Kevin McMillan of Austin, Texas)" (approximate quote).
Donald Crull, in his role as the on-duty editor in chief of "The Broward Times", had a daily tradition of holding hour-long one-to-one "meetings" with a young blond male janitor who was also employed in the same office building at that very same newspaper in Tamarac, Florida. I was told at the time by one or more of my reporter coworkers at "The Broward Times" that Mr. Crull was allegedly having a sexual affair with that same janitor---an individual whom Mr. Crull presumably supervised, I might add.
It was very offensive and alienating to me, as a reporter for "The Broward Times," to observe my head work supervisor in the middle of the workday---in the early afternoon, for instance---- neglecting his own assigned duties as newspaper editor in order to himself "chat" in person for a full hour with a male janitor who himself was NOT a member of the news and editorial department of that newspaper. Mr. Crull was responsible for writing editorials for that newspaper, and he also presided over "budget" meetings at which planned future news stories and feature stories for that newspaper were discussed with his reporting staff and assistant editors.
----I myself have never spent any of my own money on any occasion in my entire life as payment to any "telephone sex" service in which an individual on the other end of the phone line would have "talked dirty" with me in a sexually solicitous manner.
---I myself cannot recall having ever directed described or directly cited to any person other than myself any "favorite romantic fantasy of myself, John Kevin McMillan" or any "favorite sexual fantasy of myself, John Kevin McMillan" at any time in my entire life.
----I myself was thoroughly repulsed when a complete stranger in the Houston area in 1993 or 1994 made two or more late-night phone calls to me at my private apartment unit in Pampa, Texas, in which that male adult person talked incessantly to me about his "favorite sexual fantasies," or words to that effect, and then repeatedly stated to me that he wanted me to tell him about my own "favorite sexual fantasies." I did hang up my end of he phone line, but only after I had explained in advance that I was not receptive to having that type of conversation with that stranger.
---I myself never at any time boasted or stated to any other human being (as a "study skills" instructor at the University of Texas at Austin, Arthur Rauch, confessed to me in 1986) that I myself while on out-of-town business trips on behalf of my employer (UT-Austin, in the case of Mr. Rauch) habitually pick up complete strangers at nighttime and have anonymous sex with those strangers during those employer-paid business trips.
----I myself never at any time in my entire life was ever once informed by any other human being that I had somehow myself acquired a "reputation" for myslef habitually standing in front of an athletic facility while allegedly staring at or allegedly "cruising" numerous male younger persons in a sexually predatory manner.
This aspect of my own conduct recvord poses a sharp contrast to a disclousre made to me by a selfi-identified "study skills instructor" at the University of Texas at Austin. That "study skills insturctor," Mr. Arthur Rauch, stated to me one day in 1986 on or near the campus of UT-Austin that "I (Mr. Rauch) am fairly sure that the gay male UT-Austin professor to whom you (John Kevin McMillan) refer is the one I myself have observed habitually cruising male UT-Austin students in a sexually predatory manner durnig periods in which he himself is standing in front of Gregory Gymnasium on the UT-Austin campus" (approximate quote).
----I myself never on any occasion in my entire life ever stared at anyone in such an intensely predatory or intensely hostile manner that the latter individual fled from tthe area with a look of intense distress and intense revulsion in his facial expression and demeanor.
This aspect of my own style as a human being poses a very sharp contrast to conduct I observed from an older man bearing a mustache in 1979. During a weekend lesiuretime trip I had taken on my own to Sanibel Island off the coast of Florida, the cited older male adult stranger standing alone near the beach stared at me in a very predatory manner without any hint of a smile on his face. A second or two after I observed that male adult person's inappropriately intrusive facial expression and demeanor, I rushed to my Volkswagen Rabbit automobile in order to drive myself away from and flee from Sanibel Island as soon as I possibly could and within the speed limit. I considered myself very, very fortunate to be alive and safe and well after
I had reached the mainland of Florida, given my certainty that the older man with a mustache had exhibited alleged hideously criminal intent toward me.
---I myself never at any time invited an individual to a party I was hosting that I promised in advance to that individual would feature numerous other adult guests of his or her own age group or younger, only to then at the party site itself and at the time of the party, myself inform the cited individual that "none of the several or numerous other invited guests showed up for this party, as it turned out, and that explains why it is only yourself and myself at this party where I will be serving lots of alcohol" (or words to that effect).
This aspect of my own conduct record poses a very sharp contrast to conduct exhibited in the early 1980s by a male acquaintance of mine, Mr. Arthur Rauch, who was himself employed full-time during that period of his life as a "study skills instructor" at the University of Texas at Austin. My own relationship with that unattractive older male adult person was, of course, strictly platonic on my part at all times; and I did permanently and irrevocably reject him from all aspects of my own life in a civil and law-abiding manner in the 1990s.
----I myself never at any time in my entire life ever once hosted any social party or dinner party at which I myself (either during that party or later that day) ever at any time attempted to have sex with, I myself asked to have sex with, or I myself did in fact have sex with, any invited guest at that party or any other person who attended that party.
This aspect of my own conduct record poses a very sharp contrast to conduct exhibited by an off-duty University of Texas at Austin "study skills" instructor, Mr. Arthur Rauch. Mr. Rauch one day in the early 1980s, during a visit of mine in the Austin area, invited me to attend a "New Year's Eve" party inside his private home situated near the campus of the University of Texas at Austin.
After serving me copious servings of champagne at that party, a party at which I expressed repeated surprise and shock to Mr. Rauch that none of the other "invited guests" of my age or younger --- guests he had promised me I would get the chance to meet in person at taht event ---- had shown up.
In fact, no guests other than myself were present at any time at that so-called "party" site, and Mr. Rauch repeatedly grabbed the zipper to my slacks nad repeatedly attempted to unzip my slacks inside the party room during that so-called "party." Fortunately for me, I was successful at preventing Mr. Rauche from fully unzipping my slacks, or from having any sexual contact with me of any type, at any time during his own lifetime. In fact, I made it very clear to that University of Texas "study skills instructor" at the cited early 1980s "party" he hosted that I did NOT want to have any physical contact or any sexual contact with him, something that I had naively assumed he already would have known for sure as of that time.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once participated in any sex act of any type at any public park or on any other public property.
----I myself never on any occasion in my entire life ever once "picked up" or was "picked up by" a planned sex partner whom I encountered for the first time ever at a public outdoor park, such as a municipal park.
----I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever once visited a clothing-optional public beach anywhere in the world.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire adult life ever once particpated in skinny-dipping or swimming in the nude or sunbathing in the nude on any occasion, with one total likely exception.
That one total likely exception was an incident I now regret that I believe may have possibly occurred in 1981 or 1982 at a semi-private fresh water lake in northwestern Minnesota near Alexandria, Minnesota, if I'm not mistaken. A group of three or four older men from Minneapolis, Minnesota, co-hosted and co-sponsored that seemingly spontaneous "skinny-dipping adventure" for myself and themselves as an accompaniment to an alcohol-drinking party they hosted and also participated in during a trip they accompanied me on into northwestern Minnesota from Minneapolis, Minnesota.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever myself participated in any type of sex act inside a movie theater or a bookstore or video arcade anywhere in the world.
----I myself have purchased or rented an X-rated movie videotape on 10 or fewer occasions in my entire life, with the last such occasion having been five or more years ago, and I only purchased or rented those X-rated videotapes under circumstances involving pervasive and very flagrant unwanted violations of my own privacy rights by others unbeknownst to me, violations of my own privacy rights that compelled me to observe cheerful or delighted images of attractive as well as youthful adult women and attractive as well as youthful adult men making the best of frequent public nudity (public nudity that, for myself only, was strictly involuntary in nature); and all of the actors in the cited X-rated movies were officially certified in those movie videotapes, and by employees of the store where I rented or purchased those videotapes, as themselves being legal-status adults.
----I myself do not currently own inside my private residence more than two total X-rated movie videotapes, if that much (I have not been able to find them when I have searched for them inside my aprtment unit in the last year or so); and any such X-rated movie videotapes exclusively feature legal-status adult female actors and legal-status adult male actors in movie productions that I myself did not sponsor or produce or request in any way.
----I myself never ordered or instructed or advised any other human being at any time to himself or herself attend or view an X-rated movie.
This aspect of my own conduct record poses a very sharp contrast exhibited in 1978 by Mr. Gene Ashlock, the editor of a special entertainment-theme supplement for "The Daily Teaxn" student newspaper on the campus of the University of Texas at Austin.
In 1978, Mr. Ashlock stated to me in the newsroom of "The Daily Texan" during a workday there fore each of us that he was assigning me to attend some X-rated movies at the "Texas" theatre along Guadalupe Street across the street from the UT-Austin campus, and that I would then be expected to write a review of those porno movies I had watched for that entertainment-theme supplement to "The Daily Texan," Mr. Ashlock said. I diligently complied with that movie-reviewing assignment, and my resulting published article for that student newspaper's special supplement did politely complain about the"problem of repetition" in the pornographic genre, including in the movie "The Autobiography of a Flea" that I had reviewed for that article.
Prior to 1978, I had never wateched or attended any X-rated movie in my entire life; and the two assigned X-rated movies that I reviewed for "The Daily Texan" student newspaper of UT-Austin were the ONLY X-rated movies I myself ever watched at any time in my life until 1983 or 1984. In 1983 or 1984, during a period in which I resided in Minneapolis, Minnesota, I did attend one total X-rated movie, "Caligula," in Minneapolis, but I walked out of that movie in disgust at an early point because I was horrified by the rampant sadism and brutal violence in that movie.
---I myself have never owned or used any sex toy at any time before, or at any time after, a multi-month period of 1983 that occurred for me in Minneapolis, Minnesota.
That particular very minimal involvement by myself with a sex toy of any type occurred only after an older man in Minneapolis, Minnesota---someone whose own involvement with me was, of course, strictly platonic in nature-----urged me to purchase and make use of the cited sex toy on my own inside the rental home where I had a private bedroom to myself.
I must have thrown away that sex toy by early 1984, since I do not recall having made use of that sex toy at any time in 1984 or in any year subsequent to 1984, for that matter.
----The new and non-Christian alcohol-free religion that I myself have established, the Progressive Prohibitionist Religion, emphatically rejects the view that human identity is primarily sexual or gender-related in nature, and places heavy emphasis on mutual-consent non-sexual or platonic relationships, including mutual-consent platonic personal relationships.
----I myself strongly believe, and I have known this for many years as well, that 99 percent or more of all of the most ardent and heartfelt love relationships in life are, in fact, observably non-sexual or platonic in nature, and do not feature any sexual contact at all between either of the two persons involved in those non-sexual friendships or friendly acquaintanceships.
----I myself strongly believe that non-sexual and lasting mutual-consent personal friendships involving mutual-respect and mutual-affection and mutual-appreciation play a pervasive role in the physical health and medical health and creative longevity and emotional health of, and moral vitality and strength of, human beings.
----I myself have never made any comment to any other human being in response to that individual's phone call per se to myself, in which I stated to the caller that that phone call to me was "proof" or "a very clear indication," or words to that effect, that that individual sought to have sex with me, in my opinion.
---I myself never or almost never make the assumption that because another individual smiles at me or looks at me intensely or stares at me, this is "proof" that that individual seeks to have sex with me, it being my view that 99 percent or more of the most heartfelt or intense personal relationships or leisuretime relationships are, in fact, observably NON-sexual or defacto-platonic in nature.
---I myself almost never talk about "sex" or "sexual identity" or "gender identity" or "sexuality" at any of my workplaces, and in my leisuretime as well, I almost never talk about those types of topics with other persons.
----I myself have almost never been told by another human being at any time that I myself "talk too much about sex" or I "talk too much about sexual identity themes" or I "talk too much about gender identity themes," or words to that effect.
---I myself have never at any time in my entire life ever subjected any other human being against his wishes to continuous and uninterrupted "gay"-theme communications or "sex"-theme communications or "sexuality"-theme communications.
---I myself have never on any occasion made a comment to another human being at a public place about a male stranger I had observed at that public place being someone whom I sought to have anonymous sex with or quickie sex with or a one-night stand with, or whom I sought to somehow add to my list of "sexual conquests" or "sex partners," or words to that effect.
---I myself have never stated to any other human being (as one Minneapolis male adult person did in a strictly-platonic two-person lunch meeting he had with me inside a barbecue restaurant in downtown Minneapolis, Minnesota, in 1982) that I myself kept a "black book" noting each and every "sex act" that I myself had ever participated in at any time, along with full details about each of those sex acts and the name of and physiological facts about each and every sex partner of mine, with an emphasis on the total overall number of sex partners that I myelf had had sex with over the course of my entire life as of that time, etc.
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once invited another male person to sit beside me and watch, or to accompany me into a movie theater in order to then watch, a sexually explicit X-rated movie or pornographic movie in any cited context.
----I myself have never at any time in my entire adult life ever on any occasion subjected any other human being to involuntary public nudism or involuntary public nudity.
---I myself have never declared to a cited acquaintance or "friend" of mine, as one female adult person in the Boston area did in fact declare to me on the telephone in 1979, during a long-distance phone call I made to her private residence in Boston from my rental apartment unit in Fort Lauderdale, Florida: "The more sex, the better!"
----I myself have never or almost never verbalized the comment to someone that a cited male person was a "hunk" or a "stud" or a male person with a "nice derriere," or someone who was "well hung," or someone who is a prospective "sex slave" or "thing" or "a nice lay," or words to that effect.
---I myself never at any time in my entire life ever once had ANY sexual contact of any type with any other human being during a time period or at a time in which that individual was, in fact, asleep or unconscious or napping.
----I myself never at any time in my entire life have ever on any occasion ever at any time myself physically assaulted, or attempted to personally injure or personally harm the medical health of, or to inflict any form of poison or illicit substance or toxic substance inside the bloodstream or nostrils or mouth or lungs of any human being during a period in which he or she was, in fact, asleep and unconscious---or during any other time period, for that matter.
----I myself have never deliberately made an obscene gesture at another human being on any occasion in my entire life, with the one exception of an incident in the summer of 1979 in Fort Lauderdale, Florida. I had been advised by local longtime residents of the Fort Lauderdale area (and it may have been reporter coworkers of mine at "The Broward Times, a "Miami Herald"-owned semi-weekly newsaper in those days where I was employed as a full-time reporter covering Coral Springs, Florida, and Lauderdale (?), Florida, in Broward County) that the motorists in Fort Lauderdale honk so frequently and without justification that the local custom was to "shoot the bird" at the honking motorists, I was told.
One day in Fort Lauderdale, during a period when a vehicle I was driving was stopped at a red light, I found it very irritating to hear a motorist in a car directly behind my own Volkswagen Rabbit honking repeatedly at me. I then remembered the local advice from the longtime residents of Fort Lauderdale, and I turned my head around from the driver's seat in order to face the motorist behind me, with myself "shooting the finger" at that motorist in accordance with the cited "local tradition" in Fort Lauderdale, Florida.
I was immediately very embarrassed to note that the motorist directly behind my vehicle was a handsome young Anglo man with a smiling face who was using his own hand to give me the famous "Hook 'Em Horns" sign of a University of Texas at Austin Longhorns fan. He had seen the Texas license plate on the Volkswagen Rabbit that I was driving that day. I turned beet red from embarrassment over the incident, and I never found the opportunity to apologize to that gentleman for the obscene gesture I had subjected him to, since the signal turned green and I continued driving my vehicle on that same roadway. I believe he may have turned onto another street from that intersection.
---I myself have NEVER been sexually active. The biggest number of total occasions in which I ever participated in a sex act with another human being in one calendar year was four total occasions, and that was in calendar year 1984, the year when I moved from Minnesota to Massachusetts in the summer of that calendar year.
---I myself have NEVER participated in ANY sex orgy on any occasion in my entire life.
---I myself have NEVER boasted to another human being on any occasion in my entire life that I regard sex orgies as "fun," or words to that effect, or that I myself advise or urge that individual that he attend a sex orgy of any type.
---I myself have NEVER at any time ever once in my entire life ever stated to any other human being (as one male adult "Daily Texan" student newspaper coworker of mine did to me in 1978, through unsolicited "personal advice" he offered me inside the newsroom of the "Daily Texan" student newspaper on the campus of the University of Texas at Austin) that I myself urge him to attend a sex orgy in the near future at which "Mazola"-brand corn oil would be poured all over the floor of the orgy-party room, with all of the participants of that cited "sex orgy" then being expected to roll around nude on that layer of Mazola oil, according to the unsolicited "personal advice" offered to me in 1978 by a "Daily Texan" coworker of mine on the campus of that State of Texas-owned public university in Austin.
---I myself NEVER verbalize obscene or profane speech in the presence of another human being, with the exception of occasions in which I am quoting a statement from another person that I regard as having been offensively profane and vulgar or, in very, very rare cases, a spontaneous outburst of an expletive such as "God Damn it!" from my own mouth comprising a mental note muttered to myself, after a shocking collision or near-collision I had just sustained against my wishes with another human being. such as a coworker, at a public place such as a workplace.
---So far in my entire career, which began in 1979, only one total work supervisor of mine has ever stated to me at any time that a word I had myself verbalized was off-color or semi-profane in nature, and that I should refrain from repeating that word while on the job on any subsequent occasion, he politely indicated. I did immediately apologize to my work supervisor in regard to the cited faux pas on my part, and the incident occurred because I was myself discreetly quoting to a friendly coworker some inappropriate language I was myself dismayed by that someone else had verbalized in my presence during working hours for me at that or some other workplace of mine.
---I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once worn any T-shirt or shirt that contained any vulgar or lewd or obscene language on that shirt.
---The number of occasions in my entire life in which any other person has directly stated to me in a non-romantic or non-sexual or platonic context for me that that individual wanted to have sex with me that same day or night, or at some future date, was very, very minimal.
I did say "no" to each of the individuals fitting that description whom I can currently recall.
One of the individuals stating that she wanted to date me that same evening was a black female prostitute who approached me, much to my surprise, as I walked home in 1984 from a wedding reception I had attended that evening for a professionally employed young woman and a male reporter coworker of mine from my employer at the time, "Worcester Magazine" in Worcester, Massachusetts. The black female prostitute, who stood next to a black man, leered at me and demanded to know if I would like to "date" her that same evening in Worcester, Massachusetts. I politely declined, and walked on.
---I myself have almost never been informed by any other human being that an item of apparrel I had myself worn struck that individual as having been obscene or lewd.
The only exception I can recall was the incident in 1996 in which senior-citizen male members of a civic group in Denver City, Texas, and I believe it may have been a Rotary Club group, complained to my employer, the local general-circulation newspaper "Denver City Press" where my senior-citizen gentleman publisher, Mr. Gene Snyder, received the emphatic oral complaint, in Denver City, that the gym shorts I had worn along with underwear that I wore underneath, to a Rotary Club meeting that day had allegedly revealed upper portions of my behind.
I myself had not been aware of that problem, but it's true that my gym shorts did not fit on me as well as they should have because of a major weight problem I had sustained during that time period. I had worn those gym shorts to the informal civic group meeting primarily because I had not found the time to do my laundry for two consecutive weeks---I worked 70 or more hours per week for that general-circulation newspaper employer of mine, a small-town newspaper where I was also the primary editor----and those shorts of mine were the only item of apparel I could find in my apartment unit that was clean enough to wear as I rushed to cover that informal small-town civic-group meeting for my small-town newspaper.
---I myself have NOT worn any mustache, beard, goatee, or any other noteworthy facial hair on my own face on any occasion in the entire 21st Century of my own life. I myself am repulsed by facial hair, and I also regard facial hair as unhygienic.
---I myself revere and fully support the legal right and Constitutional right of any human being to politely and in a law-abiding and honorably non-anonymous manner verbalize non-profane criticism at any time of the so-called gay subculture, the so-called gay community, any gay media company, any gay group of any sort, any cited "gay" person, any cited lesbian group, any cited transsexual group, any cited bisexual group, any gay-lesbian-bisexual-transsexual group, etc.
---I myself am founder and sole current approved member of a fully independent new non-Christian and implicitly-deistic religion, the Progressive Prohibitionist Religion, a religion with strict membership-eligiblity requirements ---- so much so that I would estimate that 99.9 percent or more of all of the self-identified homosexual male adult persons, self-identified gay adult persons, self-identified lesbian adult persons, self-identified transsexual adult persons, self-identified bisexual adult persons, self-identified effeminate male adult persons, and self-identified transvestite adult persons, respectively, would not on an individual basis or on any other basis either qualify for membership in my own religion or be appropriate as prospective members of my own fully independent new religion.
It's noteworthy that my own tobacco-free, alcohol-free, illicit-drug-free as well as marijuana-free religion opposes thought-control projects and opposes participation in anonymous communications violative of the privacy rights of anyone, including myself. My own religion, the Progressive Prohibitionist Religion, also strives to address the braoder needs of society, with a particular emphasis on befriending children and all other young persons under age 30, and on also befriending biological parents and step-parents during the period in which they are raising children inside their own home.
---I myself have been a successful official "Big Brother" or successful unofficial "Big Brother" in a volunteer leisuretime context for me in which I befriended an elementary-school-age male youth, through five separate total intergenerational friendships for me, beginning in the early 1980s in New Ulm, Minnesota. Through my life and career pursuits, I assign very high priority to befriending children from a wide variety of backgrounds in a very wholesome and honorable and kindly manner.
---I myself emphatically and firmly oppose any and all forms of discrimination, whether implicit or explicit in nature, that is directed against any person in a context relating to his or her being a law-abiding heterosexual man or a law-abiding heterosexual woman, respectively.
---I myself lead a lifestyle and life in which I am myself fully inclusive toward and friendly toward a wide variety of law-abiding and privacy-respectful heterosexual adult men as well as a wide variety of law-abiding and privacy-respectful heterosexual adult women.
---I myself revere and savor a polite and respectful gentlemanly style in men and male youths, and a polite ladylike style in women and female youths.
---I myself have almost never verbalized to an acquaintance or coworker of mine a nasty put-down or profane or unkind disparagement of another human being within seconds after the latter individual walked past me or at a time when the latter individual was approaching me in a public place.
----I myself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once criticized another human being on the grounds that he or she was "too friendly to heterosexual men and heterosexual women," or on the grounds that he or she "exhibits a bias in favor of masculine men," or on the grounds that he or she "feels more comfortable in the presence of gentlemen who are masculine."
----I myself have never at any time stated (as one male adult resident of Minneapolis, Minnesota, confessed to me in 1981 or 1982, in regard to his own outlook toward any and all heterosexual persons, he emphasized) that I myself "hate all heterosexual persons!" (a near-exact quote).
---I myself have NEVER on any occasion ever once complained to another human being that a cited acquaintance or prospective acquaintance of mine was "too straight" or "too straight for my tastes."
----I myself have NEVER stated to another human being that I myself believed that it was somehow "liberating" to him to pursue a spree of sexual promiscuity, or that it was somehow "liberating" to him to himself talk about sex and sexual identity on a frequent and habitual basis in all aspects of his own life, including in the context of his career.
---I myself have NEVER on any occasion in my entire life ever once stated to any other human being that "you need to come of the closet," or that "it's good that you have come out of the closet." Any such metaphorical language is very offensive to me, and I also regard that type comment from an individual as being very repressive.
---I myself have NEVER at any time stated to any other human being at any time that I myself expected him or her to have, or that I myself wanted him or her to have, a relationship of any type with any gay media company or any gay group anywhere in the world.
---I myself have NEVER on any occasion ever once criticized another human being because he verbalized or conveyed personal enthusiasm of his own toward a cited heterosexual legal-status adult gentleman younger than himself in age.
----I myself have NEVER on any occasion in my entire life ever once directly stated to any other human being that I myself regarded him or her as being "anti-gay," "too anti-gay," "homophobic," or "too homophobic."
----I myself have never subjected any other human being to a "compelled speech" requirement or "compelled speech" expectation of any type relating to his own views about the so-called "gay subculture" or the so-called "gay rights movement" or the so-called "gay community" or any cited "gay persons" or any cited "homosexual persons" or any cited "lesbian persons" or any cited "transsexual persons" or any cited "bisexual persons" or any cited "effeminate male adult persons".
----I myself am not at all offended by any person having an "internal thought process" that is either very critical of or critical of, or expressing his own a rejection of, the so-called "gay subculture," my only expectation of any person being that his visible and tangibly observable conduct should be civil and law-abiding at all times.
---I mysself have never on any occasion in my entire life ever once stated to anyone, as Professor Guy Howard Miller of the University of Texas at Austin History Department faculty emphatically stated to me on the campus of UT-Austin one day in 1978 or 1979, or possibly early 1980, that "The best-selling non-fiction book 'The Culture of Narcissism' by Christopher Lasch is a very anti-gay book, and is very offfensive to me (Professor Guy Howard Miller, in that case) for that reason!" (approximate quote).
----I myself very emphatically reject the view of many of the persons who choose to be affiliated with the so-called "gay subculture" that any law-abiding individual who has a pervasively critical or predominantly critical vantage point toward the so-called "gay subculture" has himself (according to the view of those persons who chose to be gay-subculture-affiliated) somehow "forfeited" his own privacy rights, or should be subjected in any way to any loss of his own privacy rights, that relates in any way to his own beliefs and perceptions and law-abiding conduct that are either very critical of, or that are critical of, the so-called gay subculture.
---I myself have NEVER at any time written any letter or note to anyone in which I criticized that individual for himself allegedly being aesthetically and emotionally and in a law-abiding manner repulsed by male adult effeminacy.
I feel very strongly that the Bill of Rights of the U.S. Constitution protects a law-abiding person's legal right to himself choose in a civil and law-abiding manner to himself associate exclusively or almost exclusively, if he so wishes, with persons who don't offend or alienate or repulse himself.
----I myself strongly support the legal and human right of any and all self-identified "gay" adult persons, any and all self-identified "homosexual" adult persons, any and all self-identified "lesbian" adult persons, any and all self-identified "transsexual" adult persons, any and all "transvestite" adult persons, and any and all "effeminate male adult persons," to themselves choose to associate as often as they like, and as extensively as they like, with any and all law-abiding heterosexual men and any and all law-abiding heterosexual women, provided that any and all such involvements or acquaintanceships are strictly-mutual-consent in nature.
---I have never stated to any person, regardless of his or her sexual or gender identity, that it would upset me or pose any concern to me at all or that it would bother me in any way if that individual leads a life in which all or virtually all of his own male adult friends and all or virtually all of his own female adult friends are heterosexual in sexual identity per se.
Any such lifestyle-related choice by any adult citizen of the United States is, of course, fully protected by the Bill of Rights of the United States Constitution, and nowhere in the American legal system is there any cited requirement inposed on any American citizen in regard to the percentage of his own men friends or the percentage of his own women friends who are or are required to be of any cited sexual-identity subpopulation or any cited gender-identity subpopulatoin.
----I myself have never stated to any other person on any occasion in my entire life that he or she is "morally obligated to the gay community" or that he or she is "expected by me to have an involvement with the gay community," or that he or she "incurred a big debt to the gay community," or that he or she "owes a lot of money to the gay community," or words to that effect.
----I myelf have never stated to anyone in my entire life that "you owe me" some favor or some quantity of money or a job offer of some type in an expected exchange for my having befriended or helped or assisted that indivdiual in the distant past or recent past in some manner.
In regard to the one total individual anyhwere in the entire world who currently owes me any amount of money----a male adult person who told me he previously lived in Oreville, Califronia----
I have chosen to forgive that one total financial debt, partly because I do not know his current mailing address.
Also, it does not bother me at all to sense thatthat individual's own political and religious beliefs and personal beliefs and priorities are probably a world apart from my own. I had lent him the money in the summer of 1991 after he made a long-distance phone call to my rental home in Cuero, Texas, to inform me that he was "stranded in El Paso, Texas," and would I be willing to wire him some money by Western Union so that he could transport himself back to his home in Sweetwater, Texas, as soon as possible? I did as Kevin requested, and when I lent him the exact amount of money he asked for at that time, I did not state to Kevin that the "Western Union wire-transfer" personal loan to himself was contingent on his doing me any special favor in the future at any time, other than his paying me back in full at some point.
---I myself have never at any time stated to anyone (as a male adult coworker of mine at the Texas Department of Public Safety (DPS) state law-enforcement agency did to me in 1989 in the context of that DPS coworker emphatically stating to me with emphasis during working hours for each of us that many of his own personal friends are "gay," and on that cited basis he as a self-identified heterosexual adult man is VERY intolerant of ANY and all criticism of the gay subculture, DPS coworker Dustin (Justin?) King emphasized to me with possible anger and very apparent indignation toward me one workshift for each uf us in 1989 inside our Texas DPS Motor Carrier Bureau workplace along Guadalupe Street in Austin, Texas; and I myself have often sensed that many self-identified "gay" persons have an outlook very similar to Dustin's in that regard) that I myself am "intolerant toward" or "dismayed by" any person who criticizes ANY cited gay person or who criticizes ANY cited gay group or who criticizes the cited "gay subculture" or "the gay community" in any way.
---I myself have never stated or indicated to anyone at any time that his or her sexual identity per se is the primary trait or most noteworthy trait about that human being that makes him or her "beautiful."
----I myself have never at any time deliberately and willfully inflicted continuous and non-stop noise pollution or non-stop verbal harassment or non-stop heckling on a cited person as punishment of that individual for himself having political or religious beliefs or personal beliefs that were very incompatible with my own.
----I myself am the founder and sole current member of a non-Christian implicitly deistic religion that specifically denies prospective membership in my fully independent new religion to any individual who has a history of subjecting other human beings to anonymous communications that violate the privacy rights of those human beings.
---I myself am definitely NOT addicted to listening incessantly to music during my leisuretime, and this has been true throughout my entire adult life.
I myself have almost never attended any live rock music concert or any live electric-guitar music performance during my leisuretime per se in my entire life.
Also, I myself happen to dislike the sound of piano music during my leisuretime per se. This also means that during my leisuretime, I almost never listen to any piano music.
One genre of music that I have greatly enjoyed listening to this 21st Century was an ornately genteel Baroque Music concert I attended several years ago that was held inside the University Presbyterian Church situated a block or so from the main campus of the University of Texas at Austin.